I hate how I feel....
I have been sulking today.. I hate it! Its not me... I walked down to the old record shop and bought that Elvis Costello album that Tara had mentioned shipbuilding and now I am sitting curled up on my couch wrapped in my blanket.... crying... no.... bawling * wiping tears* I don't know why I feel this way... *walking over to record player, watching the record spin, tears dripping off face on to the player* *watches the old 45 start the song over* *listing, biting lip* ITS THIS DAMN SAD SONG!!! FUCK IT *Grabbing record and throws it across the room, hits above fireplace and shatters* DAMN IT!! *Deep breath* No more sulking today or ever about this.. as the song goes.. Is it worth it? I say hell no! *picks up guitar* It is Kenny time! *Runs out to boat and pushes it out hops on and and sails off*