wow.
so, a few weeks ago, I flew to cedar rapids, to see my biggest crush of all time, Nicole k. I am in love. hard. I am confident she loves me just as much. I have wanted to be with her for as long as I Can remember. the room literally lit up the first time I saw her. I haven't gone more than a week I don't think ever without thinking about her. we are doing really well from a distance. she even is planning on moving here. I Want to marry this girl. I already bought a ring. I am going to give it to her as a promise ring, but I really want to just ask her to marry me. I have to constantly remind myself that she is not my exes. she isn't. she is wonderful. and honest, and stylish, and smart, and fucking wild in the sack, and oh my god does she get me going. I have never felt this good or alive. <3. I don't think I have ever been in love before this.