ALL THE WOUNDS THAT ARE NEVER GOING TO HEAL
I had a dream about Frank, a guy at work whose the cook. He's hot. Today at work, theres this guy named aaron, whose fun to flirt with. But all the guys at work are fun to flirt with. Does it help me deal with my Michael issue? Not in the least bit.
I was getting off work, hoping to see him, he didn't show. I go the opposite direction of home, towards his place hoping to catch a glimpse of him driving to work, then turn around when no sign of him seemed to be on the road. Every red car i saw i turned to see if it was him, but no. Then when i got closer to home I see him, and another person, who i think was a girl and if it was it would have been his girlfriend. So it bummed me out, a lot. He gave me a look, and you know what look I mean, A look of "oh shit don't call me" kind of look or the "damn i can't get you off my mind like i wish i could and its awkward because im with my girfriend" look.
I wanted to cry. Its so hard i'm so drawn to him, but this too will pass. It wasn't love. I will get over him like i did the rest that put me through this. I just need a new guy to start drama with and forget what i have with michael.
Phillip has a friend Jobi who he says talked about me. I'm not looking for anything serious though. I just want good friends and Michael off my mind. That guy aaron could help, wink wink, but i don't know how to go about that, maybe ill figure it out, maybe the time i get to work with him will come sooner.
I just need to make out with someone and feel a connection with them. Paul, it wasn't there. Even with tito, his lil chiuaua sleeping between us. I faked it all, hoping that it would help me take my mind off of michael before michael got the best of me. It just wasn't there, i had to fake it and he can't kiss its like his whole mouth tries to suck you in. Michael is just excellant, why didn't I listen to him. He said "don't fall in love"...don't worry, im just evil. I don't think hell want me seeing his g/f, hell be too worried i'll say something, which i just might, bc of the way i am. But id rather not see her and find all her faults and mine as well and compare ourselves.
But aaron, yeah hes cute I could see myself making out with him. maybe i just want michael bc hes not mine. Thats how i am. Oh well.
I thought tonight as i was driving in my leaky car to get newports and it was pouring down rain how ppl would talk and how michael would feel, if i just slipped off the road in the rain and that would be it. I would be just another girl to die in a car accident, another memory for ppl to talk about once and awhile, another pain to remember for some, and another heartache to forget for others. But as always i made it home safely. Ah well.
I was getting off work, hoping to see him, he didn't show. I go the opposite direction of home, towards his place hoping to catch a glimpse of him driving to work, then turn around when no sign of him seemed to be on the road. Every red car i saw i turned to see if it was him, but no. Then when i got closer to home I see him, and another person, who i think was a girl and if it was it would have been his girlfriend. So it bummed me out, a lot. He gave me a look, and you know what look I mean, A look of "oh shit don't call me" kind of look or the "damn i can't get you off my mind like i wish i could and its awkward because im with my girfriend" look.
I wanted to cry. Its so hard i'm so drawn to him, but this too will pass. It wasn't love. I will get over him like i did the rest that put me through this. I just need a new guy to start drama with and forget what i have with michael.
Phillip has a friend Jobi who he says talked about me. I'm not looking for anything serious though. I just want good friends and Michael off my mind. That guy aaron could help, wink wink, but i don't know how to go about that, maybe ill figure it out, maybe the time i get to work with him will come sooner.
I just need to make out with someone and feel a connection with them. Paul, it wasn't there. Even with tito, his lil chiuaua sleeping between us. I faked it all, hoping that it would help me take my mind off of michael before michael got the best of me. It just wasn't there, i had to fake it and he can't kiss its like his whole mouth tries to suck you in. Michael is just excellant, why didn't I listen to him. He said "don't fall in love"...don't worry, im just evil. I don't think hell want me seeing his g/f, hell be too worried i'll say something, which i just might, bc of the way i am. But id rather not see her and find all her faults and mine as well and compare ourselves.
But aaron, yeah hes cute I could see myself making out with him. maybe i just want michael bc hes not mine. Thats how i am. Oh well.
I thought tonight as i was driving in my leaky car to get newports and it was pouring down rain how ppl would talk and how michael would feel, if i just slipped off the road in the rain and that would be it. I would be just another girl to die in a car accident, another memory for ppl to talk about once and awhile, another pain to remember for some, and another heartache to forget for others. But as always i made it home safely. Ah well.