DONT CHA WISH YO GIRLFRIEND WAS HOT LIKE ME
Sooooo another night, without sex. Oh well. It's okay. I came so close last night, but he was at a friends house who was arguing with his girlfriend and that guy needed a place to stay. So i thought okay then at least tonight, tonight, tonight tonight tonight. Well he calls me back, and he's on his way to milledgeville. Hes going to see his mom and shes going to cut his hair. I like his hair, but whatever floats his boat. Last night i said something about him moving to athens and he says "oh yeah i meant to tell you about that.........""im not moving, ive decided ill go and see her every tuesday and wednesday". "the ppl there suck and the tips suck and it's right across from the ghetto". Well i dont know if he was completely honest about his answer, i kind of feel there may be another hidden reason, ahem, but w/e, the point is, is hes staying. I hope this doesn't mean no more sex though. THe future is really unknown though. I mean how long can this go. He's got a g/f but hes fucking around with me on the side, while telling himself hes in love with this other girl. If it goes on too long hes going to have to do some serious thinking, bc he obviously can't love this girl like he tries to say he does. I'll just keep playing like i don't care at all. I'll get under his skin. But tonight he was really friendly with me on the phone, so yay. Hes just like "okay time for me to get naked now". I would have been like "yeah i like you naked", but bc he has a g/f and i dont know what terms exactly were on, i was just like "thats good to know" and laughed. He's so nice and friendly. I really wish he didn't have a girlfriend. I want to hang out with him again and have a deep talk, so he doesn't think im some numb skull. This is where i think my problems could work for me. And i don't want to mess anything up but i do want to talk to him about how i don't want him putting on an act just bc hes afraid of me telling ppl about us.