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This will be no labor of love. I will indulge myself. I will rally my demons and march them for nickels. I will economize my shame. I will own it all. I will plumb my own madness, find myself, beat it mercilessly, fuck it until I'm begging me to stop. I will probe and pull and tear and consume. I will salvage every useful piece, process the scrap. When I've stripped it of everything valuable, I will hunt down a new me. It won't be enough to do this for myself. I will drag this spectacle into a forum for every retching God to see.