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well, let me tell you, yesterday night sucked when i got home.
if you were on around 12 you probably saw a really messed up post i made where i basically called 2 or 3 people out on the shit they've done to me emotionally as of the past few weeks.
then i made it private. it's not that it doesn't matter, it's just that the people who needed to read it basically wouldn't, so there was no point to making everyone else read it.
it's so fucked up when you realize you really only have one true true true friend to rely on.
i don't want anyone to feel hurt by that, but it's really my situation right now.
however i am very glad that will is going to be back in my life. hopefully i won't fuck that up.
today i woke up and still felt bad. i watched some sopranos and then finally met up with lauren but i made the stupid mistake of driving out right at 5 so i got stuck in rush hour traffic on ellsworth/state/platt but it was okay. we drove around and went to the mall for a few minutes to drop off her journeys application and i got some food at the coney island.
we ended up downtown where we stood in the diag for a while talking to people and we all know that isn't my favorite pasttime at all. but something good happened. a man drove up in a wheelchair and asked to take our picture. we were mourning the loss of a friend (because he's apparently an asshole now) while sitting on a cement bench. i lit up when i saw his amazing Mamiya with a beautiful lens. he said we should huddle together more and then asked how long we've been together and when our wedding date was :)
it was cute, and i didn't have the heart to tell him we are just friends.
his website
but yeah, that definitely made us feel better. he has some amazing photography. black and white portraits are my favourite, you know, and i just really need to start doing that with people.
i wore that today.
if you were on around 12 you probably saw a really messed up post i made where i basically called 2 or 3 people out on the shit they've done to me emotionally as of the past few weeks.
then i made it private. it's not that it doesn't matter, it's just that the people who needed to read it basically wouldn't, so there was no point to making everyone else read it.
it's so fucked up when you realize you really only have one true true true friend to rely on.
i don't want anyone to feel hurt by that, but it's really my situation right now.
however i am very glad that will is going to be back in my life. hopefully i won't fuck that up.
today i woke up and still felt bad. i watched some sopranos and then finally met up with lauren but i made the stupid mistake of driving out right at 5 so i got stuck in rush hour traffic on ellsworth/state/platt but it was okay. we drove around and went to the mall for a few minutes to drop off her journeys application and i got some food at the coney island.
we ended up downtown where we stood in the diag for a while talking to people and we all know that isn't my favorite pasttime at all. but something good happened. a man drove up in a wheelchair and asked to take our picture. we were mourning the loss of a friend (because he's apparently an asshole now) while sitting on a cement bench. i lit up when i saw his amazing Mamiya with a beautiful lens. he said we should huddle together more and then asked how long we've been together and when our wedding date was :)
it was cute, and i didn't have the heart to tell him we are just friends.
his website
but yeah, that definitely made us feel better. he has some amazing photography. black and white portraits are my favourite, you know, and i just really need to start doing that with people.
i wore that today.