Week *somewhere in the 60's*
So I may have exaggerated somewhat in the previous entry, not really about what happened, just about a certain someone's reaction TO what happened. Meaning he didn't forget that I existed. We may no longer be on the fast-track to a relationship, but he doesn't hate me.
On the other hand, he keeps asking what I like to do for fun. I know this is supposed to be a good sign, he's obviously interested in seeing more of me, and not just for sex (FINALLY), but I've been having some major issues with telling him. Not because I don't want to. Because I can't.
I realized that I have no interests. I mean, I used to be in theatre, but I had a nervous breakdown when I realized I might be a thespian for life. Hence the change in majors. I like philosophy, and women's issues/studies, and the idea of going to law school and being an activist on behalf of women, but that's a job. I mean, it's an interest, but who goes to women's rights rallies just for kicks? It's a serious issue, and it's a serious job. I like that, but it's not quite date material. I read a lot, but that's usually because I have to. Or I can do it without becoming stressed or sick. I do nothing at home, because I'm the woman of the house, and I spend all my time ATTEMPTING to clear out some of the shit my mother had collected in her 22 years in this house. Or helping my sister with her homework. Or making breakfast/lunch/dinner/assorted items for bake sales and potlucks. Or cleaning the bathroom, doing the laundry, dishes, or WHATEVER THE HELL ELSE YOU DO to keep a household of 5 running. Nannying was a job. Sewing is a job. Even dance feels like a job, now that I'm MK.
I was only into gaming cause Casey was, and it was a way to see more of him. Then Rob and Frank, that's how I saw more of them. I really don't enjoy it enough to even go to the Oshkosh Gamer's meetings. It's only any fun if it's the guys.
So I'm at a loss about what to tell him. I just never realized that I don't have any interests. I really don't DO anything. Help?
Lizzie
On the other hand, he keeps asking what I like to do for fun. I know this is supposed to be a good sign, he's obviously interested in seeing more of me, and not just for sex (FINALLY), but I've been having some major issues with telling him. Not because I don't want to. Because I can't.
I realized that I have no interests. I mean, I used to be in theatre, but I had a nervous breakdown when I realized I might be a thespian for life. Hence the change in majors. I like philosophy, and women's issues/studies, and the idea of going to law school and being an activist on behalf of women, but that's a job. I mean, it's an interest, but who goes to women's rights rallies just for kicks? It's a serious issue, and it's a serious job. I like that, but it's not quite date material. I read a lot, but that's usually because I have to. Or I can do it without becoming stressed or sick. I do nothing at home, because I'm the woman of the house, and I spend all my time ATTEMPTING to clear out some of the shit my mother had collected in her 22 years in this house. Or helping my sister with her homework. Or making breakfast/lunch/dinner/assorted items for bake sales and potlucks. Or cleaning the bathroom, doing the laundry, dishes, or WHATEVER THE HELL ELSE YOU DO to keep a household of 5 running. Nannying was a job. Sewing is a job. Even dance feels like a job, now that I'm MK.
I was only into gaming cause Casey was, and it was a way to see more of him. Then Rob and Frank, that's how I saw more of them. I really don't enjoy it enough to even go to the Oshkosh Gamer's meetings. It's only any fun if it's the guys.
So I'm at a loss about what to tell him. I just never realized that I don't have any interests. I really don't DO anything. Help?
Lizzie