"we laid it down and left it all behind, we were blind. oh, the summertime..."
i'm not really sure what it is about me that makes me tick the way I do, or makes me feel the certain ways i feel at different points in time.
I don't know what it is with my connection with this time of year or why I cherish it so much. I think most people like the summer for obvious reasons, because its nice, sunny, warm, and it brings along fun times such as cookouts, parties, beach trips, vacations, hiking, camping, etc.
i love many of these things too, but I feel some kind of deeper feeling when the summer rolls around, like everything in the world around me just gets somehow better. its been tough not really getting to enjoy my favorite time of year this year - on account of the entire month of june being rainy, cool, and cloudy, and then working every week-day and being busy on weekends. I havent even gotten to put my feet in the atlantic ocean yet this summer, and its already the 2nd week of august.
sighh, such is life. i think a huge part of it for me has to do with the structured environment of school and work that I have been used to for the past 15 years of my life. the explanation behind this is probably something for another entry, but the co-incidence of school with the fall and winter and all of the memories that go along with this for me make the summer such an extremely valuable time. i feel like it slips away so fast too.
all in all i just find myself wanting more and more to get school over with, to settle into ONE job where I am comfortable, at least for awhile, and to figure out how it is that I really want to live my life. it scares me shitless, but "real life" just has to start sooner or later, or I am going to go crazy.
I don't know what it is with my connection with this time of year or why I cherish it so much. I think most people like the summer for obvious reasons, because its nice, sunny, warm, and it brings along fun times such as cookouts, parties, beach trips, vacations, hiking, camping, etc.
i love many of these things too, but I feel some kind of deeper feeling when the summer rolls around, like everything in the world around me just gets somehow better. its been tough not really getting to enjoy my favorite time of year this year - on account of the entire month of june being rainy, cool, and cloudy, and then working every week-day and being busy on weekends. I havent even gotten to put my feet in the atlantic ocean yet this summer, and its already the 2nd week of august.
sighh, such is life. i think a huge part of it for me has to do with the structured environment of school and work that I have been used to for the past 15 years of my life. the explanation behind this is probably something for another entry, but the co-incidence of school with the fall and winter and all of the memories that go along with this for me make the summer such an extremely valuable time. i feel like it slips away so fast too.
all in all i just find myself wanting more and more to get school over with, to settle into ONE job where I am comfortable, at least for awhile, and to figure out how it is that I really want to live my life. it scares me shitless, but "real life" just has to start sooner or later, or I am going to go crazy.