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Amberly came over today and it was MUCHLY. NEEDED. Andrew was getting on my nerves and I needed friend time. Mostly because...
okay. When we were at jiu-jitsu, he decided to do a move with me that I wasn't ready for. I hit the floor wrong. It hurt. Enough that I had to talk myself out of crying (like an ADULT!) I lifted up my hand to ask for help up and got the, "No. You get yourself up in jiu-jitsu." A) I highly doubt this was how you were taught because that is not how your teacher is, and B) I had voiced my concerns before hand that I didn't think I was ready for the move. I wasn't. You physically hurt me, and not only that, but you did so because you ignored my concerns. The least you could do is help me up. C) It's not a gesture of "manliness." It's a gesture of respect. And I'm pretty sure the sensei would rather you show proper respect than proper manliness, ESPECIALLY considering I was hurt.
And then, Andrew was showing me how to block punches, and decided to imitate real world situations, aka: chopping at me with his full force. I have no upper body strength and as bulky as my arms are, they are all bone. Whereas he has spent the last two and a half years building up his upper body and can bench-press 130 pounds. AND he point-blank refuses to take off his medical bracelet. Meaning I managed to get a full-force karate chop on my bony forearm. I got a half-hearted, "Oh, sorry. Are you okay? (You need to man-up)"
>:/ >:/ >:/ this was such an asshole thing for him to do. I'm really, really angry about it. He is NOT allowed to be condescending towards me. I know most of it is that he's happy that he's finally able to show how macho-supertastic-brilliant-elite! he is. And I don't want to deal with that bullshit. He might be better at me in jiu-jitsu, but he's NOTHING compared to the others in the class, and I'm not taking this to be ~competitive.~ I don't play the "Who's better than who" game (I feel like a "whom" deserves to be in that). I'm doing this SOLELY for me. I don't want to get dragged into Andrew's powerplays.
Also, he's been super, shittastically moody and I don't want to deal with that crap >:/ So Amberly was a blessed relief today
okay. When we were at jiu-jitsu, he decided to do a move with me that I wasn't ready for. I hit the floor wrong. It hurt. Enough that I had to talk myself out of crying (like an ADULT!) I lifted up my hand to ask for help up and got the, "No. You get yourself up in jiu-jitsu." A) I highly doubt this was how you were taught because that is not how your teacher is, and B) I had voiced my concerns before hand that I didn't think I was ready for the move. I wasn't. You physically hurt me, and not only that, but you did so because you ignored my concerns. The least you could do is help me up. C) It's not a gesture of "manliness." It's a gesture of respect. And I'm pretty sure the sensei would rather you show proper respect than proper manliness, ESPECIALLY considering I was hurt.
And then, Andrew was showing me how to block punches, and decided to imitate real world situations, aka: chopping at me with his full force. I have no upper body strength and as bulky as my arms are, they are all bone. Whereas he has spent the last two and a half years building up his upper body and can bench-press 130 pounds. AND he point-blank refuses to take off his medical bracelet. Meaning I managed to get a full-force karate chop on my bony forearm. I got a half-hearted, "Oh, sorry. Are you okay? (You need to man-up)"
>:/ >:/ >:/ this was such an asshole thing for him to do. I'm really, really angry about it. He is NOT allowed to be condescending towards me. I know most of it is that he's happy that he's finally able to show how macho-supertastic-brilliant-elite! he is. And I don't want to deal with that bullshit. He might be better at me in jiu-jitsu, but he's NOTHING compared to the others in the class, and I'm not taking this to be ~competitive.~ I don't play the "Who's better than who" game (I feel like a "whom" deserves to be in that). I'm doing this SOLELY for me. I don't want to get dragged into Andrew's powerplays.
Also, he's been super, shittastically moody and I don't want to deal with that crap >:/ So Amberly was a blessed relief today