Benedryl dreams
I get insane Benedryl dreams.
Every now and then, I have to drug myself to sleep and Benedryl will Knock. Me. Out. And I get some INSANE dreams because of it.
A few nights ago, I dreamt I was the sole heiress to the Disney AND Muppet Corporations. I head-nodded to Buzz Lightyear AND I got to hug Big Bird.
Last night, I was dating both Lucius Malfoy AND Severus Snape. Uh... Can I just never wake up from that one?
In other news, the post-graduation panic attacks started today! I wanted to give myself a summer off before I started job-hunting, just because I knew I'd be freaking out otherwise, and... as of the seventh, it'll have been three months. I woke up today, immediately had an existentialist crisis, and immediately flew into a panic attack- "Ohmigod I have three months before I need to start paying off my loans (only $4000 thank GOD) and I don't have a job and what if I can't GET a job and where the hell do I even start??? Why can't college have prepared me for the REAL WORLD?!?!?!?!" and started digging through a few job-hunting websites (namely IdeaList and Monster.com) before I realized that doing this now is just going to make me panic and flip out even more. I need to take it one step at a time, starting with updating my resume. And I need to not panic. I'm not looking for a career-position and... somebody might want me, right? ... Right? (cue my echo resounding in a silent room)
I wish I knew what I wanted to do... I wish I knew what I wanted to be when I grow up :( And I wish I didn't have to grow up so soon :(!!!! (And Dad was no help-- "Hey! You can just get married to somebody with a career!" Yeah. I need to find a guy first to do that. Somebody who isn't a douchebag, that I can stand for a prolonged period of time, and who can stand ME for a prolonged period of time...)
Every now and then, I have to drug myself to sleep and Benedryl will Knock. Me. Out. And I get some INSANE dreams because of it.
A few nights ago, I dreamt I was the sole heiress to the Disney AND Muppet Corporations. I head-nodded to Buzz Lightyear AND I got to hug Big Bird.
Last night, I was dating both Lucius Malfoy AND Severus Snape. Uh... Can I just never wake up from that one?
In other news, the post-graduation panic attacks started today! I wanted to give myself a summer off before I started job-hunting, just because I knew I'd be freaking out otherwise, and... as of the seventh, it'll have been three months. I woke up today, immediately had an existentialist crisis, and immediately flew into a panic attack- "Ohmigod I have three months before I need to start paying off my loans (only $4000 thank GOD) and I don't have a job and what if I can't GET a job and where the hell do I even start??? Why can't college have prepared me for the REAL WORLD?!?!?!?!" and started digging through a few job-hunting websites (namely IdeaList and Monster.com) before I realized that doing this now is just going to make me panic and flip out even more. I need to take it one step at a time, starting with updating my resume. And I need to not panic. I'm not looking for a career-position and... somebody might want me, right? ... Right? (cue my echo resounding in a silent room)
I wish I knew what I wanted to do... I wish I knew what I wanted to be when I grow up :( And I wish I didn't have to grow up so soon :(!!!! (And Dad was no help-- "Hey! You can just get married to somebody with a career!" Yeah. I need to find a guy first to do that. Somebody who isn't a douchebag, that I can stand for a prolonged period of time, and who can stand ME for a prolonged period of time...)