#o33 - see you at the bitter end
I've been having serious mood swings lately. I don't know exactly why but I think it might be because of all the stress lately and the frustration & anger I've felt a few times lately ^^" I also lost about 3 pounds when doing absolutely nothing for it, I think it might also be the stress cause I really can't explain it any other way. My brother and mother are worried because of it -_- (they've just been here, eating dinner with me <3) even though I told them I've been eating as usually (which doesn't mean that I've eaten a lot but yeah.. I never lost weight because of my eating habits before so I don't know why it happened now...)
Elsewhere there's not much to tell, or maybe too much because I really don't know where to start. My life's been a rollercoaster lately, going up and down way too quickly. Every happy event was followed by a bad one and vica versa. School's been wearing me out, as well as my friends, and pretty much anything actually. I feel really tired all the time (I fell asleep on the sofa the day before yesterday while watching tv for no reason at all) and I'm only ever active when meeting up with someone to go out.
I've been out and about quite a lot since I've met Georg (guy I've met at airrock when celebrating Beccy's birthday) but I'm not at all sure if I'm happy with the way things are going. I'm starting to feel like an ass again because I just can't seem to settle down and say 'hey I've found a guy I really really really like'. Perhaps I'm just not made for relationships-- I'm really starting to believe it. I don't even want one at the moment (with school and everything going on I'd barely have time for a relationship anyway) but it seems that I'm the only one thinking this way. I just wanna go out and have fun (yeah, I know that sounds kinda bad but it's how I feel) without having to worry about being an ass or being egoistical or whatever (hence entry #o31).
So, uhm, enough of that. What has happened the last few days? Beccy slept over on friday, we watched some movies, listened to music and talked a bit. It was nice <3 On saturday I went out with Sina because I'd promised her. It was great, we first went to Soho Vienna and sung karaoke there (I'm a bitch by Meredith Brooks, hehe) and also got two free drinks from some men 30+ -.- (reason for my weird entry before). Afterwards we went to play pool for an hour - I think I won but I'm not sure, it was either 3:1 for me or 2:2. That was pretty much my weekend and today my mum and bro visited me because my brother cooked chili for me <3 I love my family, they're the ones I can always rely on no matter what happens.
So, yeah, that was pretty much it. Angie just came back today and now we have to do something for school x.x We have that Slovakia Project this week which means I'll hardly have time for anything other than school. I'm sleeping in Bratislava from wednesday to thursday. The only two pros I can think of that this Project brings is that a) I'm getting out of Vienna and b) I have no school for a whole week.
I could really use some holidays already *waits impatiently for fall holidays*
Elsewhere there's not much to tell, or maybe too much because I really don't know where to start. My life's been a rollercoaster lately, going up and down way too quickly. Every happy event was followed by a bad one and vica versa. School's been wearing me out, as well as my friends, and pretty much anything actually. I feel really tired all the time (I fell asleep on the sofa the day before yesterday while watching tv for no reason at all) and I'm only ever active when meeting up with someone to go out.
I've been out and about quite a lot since I've met Georg (guy I've met at airrock when celebrating Beccy's birthday) but I'm not at all sure if I'm happy with the way things are going. I'm starting to feel like an ass again because I just can't seem to settle down and say 'hey I've found a guy I really really really like'. Perhaps I'm just not made for relationships-- I'm really starting to believe it. I don't even want one at the moment (with school and everything going on I'd barely have time for a relationship anyway) but it seems that I'm the only one thinking this way. I just wanna go out and have fun (yeah, I know that sounds kinda bad but it's how I feel) without having to worry about being an ass or being egoistical or whatever (hence entry #o31).
So, uhm, enough of that. What has happened the last few days? Beccy slept over on friday, we watched some movies, listened to music and talked a bit. It was nice <3 On saturday I went out with Sina because I'd promised her. It was great, we first went to Soho Vienna and sung karaoke there (I'm a bitch by Meredith Brooks, hehe) and also got two free drinks from some men 30+ -.- (reason for my weird entry before). Afterwards we went to play pool for an hour - I think I won but I'm not sure, it was either 3:1 for me or 2:2. That was pretty much my weekend and today my mum and bro visited me because my brother cooked chili for me <3 I love my family, they're the ones I can always rely on no matter what happens.
So, yeah, that was pretty much it. Angie just came back today and now we have to do something for school x.x We have that Slovakia Project this week which means I'll hardly have time for anything other than school. I'm sleeping in Bratislava from wednesday to thursday. The only two pros I can think of that this Project brings is that a) I'm getting out of Vienna and b) I have no school for a whole week.
I could really use some holidays already *waits impatiently for fall holidays*