we rise and fall
I am a hermit, but you all knew that. I don't really interact with Nerd Society anymore, and while a part of me misses it, a part of me really doesn't miss the drama and ridiculousness. (I came in during a transition period for the group, and personalities are constantly clashing over the future of the group.) I also don't really have anyone else here in Florida, so I am pretty much alone all the time. I get a lot done, academically, and get to always cook for myself, but it is a little lonely. Back when Adam was here, sometimes we'd just have time to ourselves - watch anime together, go out to eat, or just explore the region. I miss that time a lot - not just because I miss Adam, but because it's a respite from the Internet and the house with someone I really care about who doesn't drive me crazy.
I have no Halloween plans, because homework is crazy. Besides, I'd feel sad if kids passed by my house and couldn't get candy, so I'll stick around and wait for trick-or-treaters.
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With the current schedule I will barely be able to see Adam over Christmas break. I should have expected it, but I am a little upset about it. I'm just really frustrated with the world seeming to never want us to be together. If I don't find an internship in New York I'm going to be so ridiculously upset.
Adam's family is also embroiled in its own form of drama, which is hard to watch. It's strange, because when I first met them, except for feeling overwhelmed around the kids I thought they had it pretty good. But the closer I get, the more I see the cracks in the armor, the sadness and the anger, as the kids grow and change and as the parents re-evaluate their relationship.
I really just want to meet another couple that has it figured out, that is content with themselves, that chose to be together, that works hard to make it work. It's hard living in a world without role models even among the people close to you - I have people (and I'm including fictional characters as "people" here) I admire deeply in their work ethic and their morals, people I admire for strength in times of struggle, but I don't have anyone to admire in keeping that morality and honesty in terms of close relationships, and that's not easy to resolve.
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Apparently my football teams are only allowed to do well when I'm not watching. I did homework during the Bayern game, and we got a 4-2 win filled with craziness. I slept in during the Chelsea game, and we got a 2-1 last-second win. I don't know whether or not I should watch the Red Bulls game, to be honest, considering it's the most important one today (playoffs!!!)
Also, I still need a Red Bulls icon. Probably should work on that, eventually. At least I have a tag now - Charging Bull is a famous New York sculpture you know even if you don't think you know sculpture, or New York. It may or may not be my mother's favorite sculpture in the world (she owns a small replica that she is very happy to display). And people wonder how I'm fiscally centrist to conservative? ;)
Speaking of MLS, the news about Klinsmann coming in to help Toronto FC is pretty exciting! I hope he does well for them. I feel like these are the steps MLS needs to take to improve - learn from others, keep growing, and clean up management (I'm looking at you, New England Revolution). It's clear from this year's World Cup as well as the fan bases in some cities (New York, Seattle, Philadelphia, and LA all come to mind) that we're ready for a growing, exciting, competitive soccer league - the management just needs to catch up. It's done so in truly spectacular fashion for New York (from worst to first!!) While I don't think we'll get to the level of the huge leagues in Europe soon, we can do a lot to improve, and a lot of it is just in solid, clean management.
I got my ontd_football Secret Santa assignment and am pretty excited! We have three teams in common (out of my five, including NTs) so this should be good and fun.
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My dad comes in next week, and it's also registration week (and a belated homecoming) at the university. Should be...fun? XP
I have no Halloween plans, because homework is crazy. Besides, I'd feel sad if kids passed by my house and couldn't get candy, so I'll stick around and wait for trick-or-treaters.
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With the current schedule I will barely be able to see Adam over Christmas break. I should have expected it, but I am a little upset about it. I'm just really frustrated with the world seeming to never want us to be together. If I don't find an internship in New York I'm going to be so ridiculously upset.
Adam's family is also embroiled in its own form of drama, which is hard to watch. It's strange, because when I first met them, except for feeling overwhelmed around the kids I thought they had it pretty good. But the closer I get, the more I see the cracks in the armor, the sadness and the anger, as the kids grow and change and as the parents re-evaluate their relationship.
I really just want to meet another couple that has it figured out, that is content with themselves, that chose to be together, that works hard to make it work. It's hard living in a world without role models even among the people close to you - I have people (and I'm including fictional characters as "people" here) I admire deeply in their work ethic and their morals, people I admire for strength in times of struggle, but I don't have anyone to admire in keeping that morality and honesty in terms of close relationships, and that's not easy to resolve.
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Apparently my football teams are only allowed to do well when I'm not watching. I did homework during the Bayern game, and we got a 4-2 win filled with craziness. I slept in during the Chelsea game, and we got a 2-1 last-second win. I don't know whether or not I should watch the Red Bulls game, to be honest, considering it's the most important one today (playoffs!!!)
Also, I still need a Red Bulls icon. Probably should work on that, eventually. At least I have a tag now - Charging Bull is a famous New York sculpture you know even if you don't think you know sculpture, or New York. It may or may not be my mother's favorite sculpture in the world (she owns a small replica that she is very happy to display). And people wonder how I'm fiscally centrist to conservative? ;)
Speaking of MLS, the news about Klinsmann coming in to help Toronto FC is pretty exciting! I hope he does well for them. I feel like these are the steps MLS needs to take to improve - learn from others, keep growing, and clean up management (I'm looking at you, New England Revolution). It's clear from this year's World Cup as well as the fan bases in some cities (New York, Seattle, Philadelphia, and LA all come to mind) that we're ready for a growing, exciting, competitive soccer league - the management just needs to catch up. It's done so in truly spectacular fashion for New York (from worst to first!!) While I don't think we'll get to the level of the huge leagues in Europe soon, we can do a lot to improve, and a lot of it is just in solid, clean management.
I got my ontd_football Secret Santa assignment and am pretty excited! We have three teams in common (out of my five, including NTs) so this should be good and fun.
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My dad comes in next week, and it's also registration week (and a belated homecoming) at the university. Should be...fun? XP