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Three more days!
The closer we get, the more I feel like I'm holding my breath with the rest of fandom. Okay, I'm holding my breath with you lovely people, while the rest of fandom loses it's mind. Not that I know if they actually are, of course, because I took those main communities off my friendslist weeks ago, and I'm not going to be adding them back for a while.
I think I've realized that what's actually responsible for my nerves isn't that the new canon might suck (I can always find something to love), or that there's going to be wank (I am really good at ignoring it). What's making me antsy is that I really, really don't want my squee squished, before it's even truly formed.
I need the space to view the material, find what I like and form my opinions before I can go interact with fandom as a whole. It's not that I don't love y'all, because even when I'm hiding in my bunker, I really do. It's that I respect opinions and diversity a little too much, I can usually see where people are coming from.
If my likes, dislikes, pet theories and justifications aren't well and truly set, I'll understand everything everyone says. With enough people, everything is going to be hated (and loved) by someone. The result will, predictably, be that I walk away feeling like the whole thing sucked, fandom sucks, or both.
And I'll have no idea what I think.
So, basically:
I may post general reactions. I may not. I may read some reaction posts, and I may not. I will almost certainly emerge once my head is screwed on straight, and dive headfirst back into the game. No matter what, I'm watching, thinking, and around.
The closer we get, the more I feel like I'm holding my breath with the rest of fandom. Okay, I'm holding my breath with you lovely people, while the rest of fandom loses it's mind. Not that I know if they actually are, of course, because I took those main communities off my friendslist weeks ago, and I'm not going to be adding them back for a while.
I think I've realized that what's actually responsible for my nerves isn't that the new canon might suck (I can always find something to love), or that there's going to be wank (I am really good at ignoring it). What's making me antsy is that I really, really don't want my squee squished, before it's even truly formed.
I need the space to view the material, find what I like and form my opinions before I can go interact with fandom as a whole. It's not that I don't love y'all, because even when I'm hiding in my bunker, I really do. It's that I respect opinions and diversity a little too much, I can usually see where people are coming from.
If my likes, dislikes, pet theories and justifications aren't well and truly set, I'll understand everything everyone says. With enough people, everything is going to be hated (and loved) by someone. The result will, predictably, be that I walk away feeling like the whole thing sucked, fandom sucks, or both.
And I'll have no idea what I think.
So, basically:
I may post general reactions. I may not. I may read some reaction posts, and I may not. I will almost certainly emerge once my head is screwed on straight, and dive headfirst back into the game. No matter what, I'm watching, thinking, and around.