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It was kinda funny...he was walking with me back to class and you know he didnt want to make anything "serious", so when i saw matt and gave him a hug i didnt think anything of it. Little did i know that simple little friendly hug would seriosly change the my life forever. That night we talked online like we always did and he said "i have to talk to you about something", of course i am a girl so i thought the worse. He hated me, he thinks im fat, he regrets ever kissing me, and i felt the happy bubble in my heart slowly deflating. He asked me if we could make things "more official", i felt elated! I couldnt believe it this boy that i had drooled over all year, was enfatuated with was actually asking me to be his girlfriend. I hadnt felt that happy or complete in years. Never would i have thought that he would steal my heart, and make me fall completely head over heels for him.
We had a rocky first couple of weeks, and we were so nervous around eachother that it seemed sort of doomed. And on april 4 2003 my uncle johhny was killed by a drunk driver crossing the street in NYC and i dont think i could have made it through without mike, he came over and let me cry on his shoulder. For the first time in his life he opened up about his opa's death and the feelings he kept hidded inside. We connected that night, like E.T. and elliot. ya know minus the whole light in the finger tip part, but we became inseperable.
Fast foward three years...i am completely head over heels in love with him still. I plan to be for the rest of my life. There have been plenty of arguements, tears, fights, screaming fits, even plenty of break ups. But its not even 1/8 of the amount of love and kisses and laughs and hugs and memories that i will cherish forever. I am thankful for a lot of things in my life, like my family and my friends, i talk to my grandma and uncle johnny and thank them for watching over me and giving me the best gift ever, the gift of love. Michael Varga i love you...everything about you. Your dumb jokes, the way you make things awakward, your snoring, your flatulations, your tattoos, your sideburns, your smile, your laugh, your smelly stinky feet, your way of making me feel so loved just by touching my arm, the way you brush my hair behing me ear, and the way you love me.
3 years and counting <3