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welp, things are rolling along. i just might survive... i want to move out of this fucking state when i get a chance. maybe in a few years i can transfer out and move up the east coast. you know im almost 23 and ive never seen snow... jesus christ. i dont think ive ever been in love either. i need to fix these things eventually. maybe i need to find religion or something. i realised that i have no faith, i mean absolutly no faith in anything. that cant be good. i dont even have faith in myself. well thats not true, i have too much faith in myself.. too much faith that i ll find these things before its too late. its so crazy to want such simple things, is it? why is that talking to ex's always makes me feel worse about myself? i mean i ll be feeling great and bam! i ll have a lil run in somewhere and my self esteem just falls through the floor. i ll figure it out.