Nov 16, 2005 15:37
I am going to address somethings...again. Yes you did word it to blame it on me. Was my intent to throw away a 20 some year friendship? No. But you can't expect me to be to have no feelings while I have to watch yours. Am I sorry my post hurt your feelings? Let me just say I will not appologize for MY feelings. Besides my post was not JUST ABOUT YOU. It was about people in general. That is why I said "people". Am I going to list each person? No. Over the years, I have let people run all over me and/or worry what people think. I can't do that anymore. I won't do that anymore. So my feelings got hurt and yeah, it seems to happen on occassion but that doesn't mean my feelings are invalid. That also doesn't mean I should sit there and take it....FROM ANYONE. If you can't handle that, there is nothing I can do about that.
I see in your post where you said, "I would never intentionally hurt you. Sorry." Okay, fine.
I acknowledge that your intent was not to hurt me, but that doesn't mean that it didn't. That doesn't mean I shouldn't feel. That doesn't mean you shouldn't feel. Again, was my intent to throw away a 20 year friendship? No. And if you think that just cuz I got irritated and just because I took a stand for myself as throwing away a friendship, I have to wonder if it was this statement that got to you. "If you don't support my decision to not let people run all over me....you aren't a friend and can go fuck yourself!" Again, this statement was not just a warning for you, but everyone around me. And if you will re-read "If you don't support my decision to not let people run all over me.." means true friends would support me taking a stand. Also, in any friendship it doesn't guarantee that we will always agree or see eye to eye or even get along all the time.
And as far as the comment you made "who is the person I thought was my friend?" I don't have to kiss ass or agree with all the time or not have feelings to be a friend. Unless that is what you are looking for, in which case that is not me. I wouldn't expect my friends to always agree with me, but on certain things such as listed above, it is just a respect issue.
I am done with this. Meaning, I am not done with our friendship (at least I hope it wouldn't lead to that), just that I am done discussing this. Any further comments can be emailed to fancyfirefly32@yahoo.com.