today, yesterday, and the day before
hope everyone had a lovely valentines day..
lets see... im sick as hell... i have a huge art history test tomorrow... havent studied at all yet... and a huge paper due for aesthetics... also not started... and what am i doing... writing in this thing...
yesterday was the worst day of my life... i exaggerate... i wont go into detail but if you know me you heard about it... things turned up on my dinner date with sunshine... i havent had a one on one with him in a while... it was good for me... not so good for his ears
valentines day was amazing... the best one ive ever had in my life... definitely...
nothing got fucked up and there were no huge dissapointments... i think it was so great because it was like any other day... i have learned from the past that thats all it really is... a normal day... with an exaggerated amount of flowers, candy, and i love yous... its a day when you have to be in love and you have to tell everyone about it... you wear red and show off your presents... its commercial and its fake... this year was different... this relationship is different... i have no complaints... and if i do, they are resolved and go away... i am not a possession... i still have a life... i still have friends... i am who i am and not something else... i dont feel that im saving someone... or changing someone... im just happy... plain and simple... the end
i went to my mailbox today... it was filled to the brim with envelopes... i know im not the only one who loves that feeling... i got two cards from sister(one from my babies with glitter and stickers) one from my aunt who i miss terribly and two from my parents... i also got a letter from my mom... it was all english teacher looking, handwritten on nice paper... and it was long... full of thoughts... nice ones... and some not all together nice... but it was a letter... a sincere attempt on my moms part to be my mom and not just an authority figure... a nice change from the past 21 years... i guess it means im growing up... maybe... or maybe she realizes i already have... i havent been home in a long time... i have nothing to miss... but its still home... i guess...
i should write this paper now
but ill probably find something else to do again
lets see... im sick as hell... i have a huge art history test tomorrow... havent studied at all yet... and a huge paper due for aesthetics... also not started... and what am i doing... writing in this thing...
yesterday was the worst day of my life... i exaggerate... i wont go into detail but if you know me you heard about it... things turned up on my dinner date with sunshine... i havent had a one on one with him in a while... it was good for me... not so good for his ears
valentines day was amazing... the best one ive ever had in my life... definitely...
nothing got fucked up and there were no huge dissapointments... i think it was so great because it was like any other day... i have learned from the past that thats all it really is... a normal day... with an exaggerated amount of flowers, candy, and i love yous... its a day when you have to be in love and you have to tell everyone about it... you wear red and show off your presents... its commercial and its fake... this year was different... this relationship is different... i have no complaints... and if i do, they are resolved and go away... i am not a possession... i still have a life... i still have friends... i am who i am and not something else... i dont feel that im saving someone... or changing someone... im just happy... plain and simple... the end
i went to my mailbox today... it was filled to the brim with envelopes... i know im not the only one who loves that feeling... i got two cards from sister(one from my babies with glitter and stickers) one from my aunt who i miss terribly and two from my parents... i also got a letter from my mom... it was all english teacher looking, handwritten on nice paper... and it was long... full of thoughts... nice ones... and some not all together nice... but it was a letter... a sincere attempt on my moms part to be my mom and not just an authority figure... a nice change from the past 21 years... i guess it means im growing up... maybe... or maybe she realizes i already have... i havent been home in a long time... i have nothing to miss... but its still home... i guess...
i should write this paper now
but ill probably find something else to do again