i wish i was sleeping in your hospital bed.
he always pronounces my name with a harsh 'r' and it gets to me. i wouldn't let anyone else pronounce it wrong, but when he does it, it's almost charming.
and i keep dreaming about him. i swear, every night, my head rejects the contentment i'm attempting while being independent and i imagine us together. we're running away from nightmares, eating dinner at at seedy diners, and he even holds my hand when we walk the city streets.
i feel like i don't know how to write anymore. everything i write, i delete or make private or tear up, because it doesn't come as easily to me as it used to. you think i would get better, but i guess the usual progression doesn't apply to me.
when does it, though?
i graduate school (again) in a month or so. i dread every single day i have to wake up and go there. i'm not good with routine, i guess.
i'm looking forward to getting a place with whoever is up for living with me. honestly, i can't wait. packing cardboard boxes and shopping at ikea is in my near future.
i feel like 2008 is going to be a good year. don't ask me why, i just have a feeling.
i'm over 2007, though.
endings and beginnings. i guess that's really all there is.
and i keep dreaming about him. i swear, every night, my head rejects the contentment i'm attempting while being independent and i imagine us together. we're running away from nightmares, eating dinner at at seedy diners, and he even holds my hand when we walk the city streets.
i feel like i don't know how to write anymore. everything i write, i delete or make private or tear up, because it doesn't come as easily to me as it used to. you think i would get better, but i guess the usual progression doesn't apply to me.
when does it, though?
i graduate school (again) in a month or so. i dread every single day i have to wake up and go there. i'm not good with routine, i guess.
i'm looking forward to getting a place with whoever is up for living with me. honestly, i can't wait. packing cardboard boxes and shopping at ikea is in my near future.
i feel like 2008 is going to be a good year. don't ask me why, i just have a feeling.
i'm over 2007, though.
endings and beginnings. i guess that's really all there is.