i'm nothing but a fuckup
i haven't talked to ryan all week. i think that's a good thing. and it doesn't really bother me, either.
he told amanda there's no hostility between us. i guess that means i should move on.
so.. how to you go about finding more about a guy? getting to know him? (even whether or not he has a girlfriend?)
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so i'm talking to ryan right now... he kind of treats me like i'm some dumb kid.. how about i'm two years OLDER than him. yea.. yet whenever he signs on i get so nervous.. why is that? and the whole time i'm talking to him, even if it's about bullshit, i'm still nervous... :-/ i wish i could forget about him. i was looking at pictures today of us, and it made me so sad.. i really miss him... but i'm not sure if i miss him, or just having someone around....
i wish i could keep myself from saying the things that i say to him sometimes..
he just said his week was eventful. i'm afraid of what that means. did he start dating that girl? probably.
i wish he still cared....
i wish someone cared.
i'm the biggest fuck up ever.
he told amanda there's no hostility between us. i guess that means i should move on.
so.. how to you go about finding more about a guy? getting to know him? (even whether or not he has a girlfriend?)
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so i'm talking to ryan right now... he kind of treats me like i'm some dumb kid.. how about i'm two years OLDER than him. yea.. yet whenever he signs on i get so nervous.. why is that? and the whole time i'm talking to him, even if it's about bullshit, i'm still nervous... :-/ i wish i could forget about him. i was looking at pictures today of us, and it made me so sad.. i really miss him... but i'm not sure if i miss him, or just having someone around....
i wish i could keep myself from saying the things that i say to him sometimes..
he just said his week was eventful. i'm afraid of what that means. did he start dating that girl? probably.
i wish he still cared....
i wish someone cared.
i'm the biggest fuck up ever.