.probably the longest and most emo entry i've ever posted but get over it.
well i suppose i should update shouldn't i?
i always mean to get around to doing so, but i never know what to say, but when do i?
there isn't much to say about what i've been up to, because there isn't anything. i don't really do anything anymore, nor have i really my entire life.
i don't understand what's wrong with me, especially lately.
i've been so alone, distant and left out.
i want to blame everyone else for this, but i suppose i have myself to blame for this misfortune.
i've just been somewhat down lately.
i don't know what to do.
i want to do something, get out, live life i suppose.
but i want to do it my own way.
i want to have fun.
i want to not feel as if i'm loosing the only person that has ever put up with hanging out with my boring ass.
i keep telling myself this is just a phase, that it'll all just end soon, but what if it doesn't?
what if i miss out on everything?
what if i end up having no one in the end?
i really don't want to do things that other people have chosen, but i want to experience my life better.
so far i've been happy with the decisions i've made, but lately i've been questioning it.
people have told me not to change who i am, and i agree with them, but sometimes i do wonder.
i mean, i do need to make some changes, but i don't know.
i suppose i just need to find the right people, which i have failed at doing so thus far.
i need find some cool kids who enjoy the same things i do, and whatnot.
i don't know how or where i'll find anyone who truly appreciates the way i am? but i'm going to have to soon.
i'm sick of this.
so fucking sick of it all.
sometimes i feel i should just give up on hoping to find good people because it just seems like my chances are slim and that i'm just better off this way.
i don't know what to do.
oh well, hopefully i'll figure this all out soon and things will change.
i just needed to get this out because i have no one to tell my problems to that will actually listen and/or care.
oh well, if you've read this far, then, uh, congradulations?
if you want to try and help, be my guest. leave a comment, call (778 0669), IM (Theme0musiC), anything.
i always mean to get around to doing so, but i never know what to say, but when do i?
there isn't much to say about what i've been up to, because there isn't anything. i don't really do anything anymore, nor have i really my entire life.
i don't understand what's wrong with me, especially lately.
i've been so alone, distant and left out.
i want to blame everyone else for this, but i suppose i have myself to blame for this misfortune.
i've just been somewhat down lately.
i don't know what to do.
i want to do something, get out, live life i suppose.
but i want to do it my own way.
i want to have fun.
i want to not feel as if i'm loosing the only person that has ever put up with hanging out with my boring ass.
i keep telling myself this is just a phase, that it'll all just end soon, but what if it doesn't?
what if i miss out on everything?
what if i end up having no one in the end?
i really don't want to do things that other people have chosen, but i want to experience my life better.
so far i've been happy with the decisions i've made, but lately i've been questioning it.
people have told me not to change who i am, and i agree with them, but sometimes i do wonder.
i mean, i do need to make some changes, but i don't know.
i suppose i just need to find the right people, which i have failed at doing so thus far.
i need find some cool kids who enjoy the same things i do, and whatnot.
i don't know how or where i'll find anyone who truly appreciates the way i am? but i'm going to have to soon.
i'm sick of this.
so fucking sick of it all.
sometimes i feel i should just give up on hoping to find good people because it just seems like my chances are slim and that i'm just better off this way.
i don't know what to do.
oh well, hopefully i'll figure this all out soon and things will change.
i just needed to get this out because i have no one to tell my problems to that will actually listen and/or care.
oh well, if you've read this far, then, uh, congradulations?
if you want to try and help, be my guest. leave a comment, call (778 0669), IM (Theme0musiC), anything.