What Men Want!
Omg. Argh, good night out last night, me and jeffie plus Helen back from uni.
There was a sarah a jess and a rachel also.
Not to mention Sarah's boyfriend James and his unfortunate looking friends...n'aw.
We went Venue, got a bit mashed up, had a fun dance to some good music. Good time in general.
We got a free tax ride home after sharing a taxi with these guys, we saw the bouncer from 42s that was mean to me last time and he gave me a hug, picked me up, showed me tattoos I did not ask to see, and promised me free que hopping and entryfor life when he got a 'snog'. Shame he thinks my name is Hannah...
Anyway!
Time before last I was at Venue I saw this guy who was a bit Graham Coxon-y with the glasses, nice dress sense he just looked nice, but he was with some mates and a couple of girls so I left it but I saw him again last night and thought 'fuck this!' and went for it.
He was really lovely and we had a nice chat and kiss etc, turns out he works for my neighbour/parent's friend, he was 23 and I told him I was 18, my excuse will be that I couldn't say otherwise inside the club...
He was like 'Why are you dancing with me? look at you!' and I was like 'What?!' and he was saying I was 'out of his league'.
Thats really nice of him, and he seemed to genuinely think that...so why hasn't he texted me?
It isn't him. He was nice, in retrospect not exactly hot as, but nice looking, and he seemed generous/kind/funny and to be honest I like someone else so much more, and when he aske dme if I was single I nearly wanted to cry when I said yes because on some level in my mind I'm not, I feel tied to Will, and I quite like that, I've never been tied to anyone else...
Will said this to me as well, 'why is a girl like you taking a second look at me, you are way out of my league!' and I really don't believe I am, maybe its how I view myself? who knows...
My question is: If I am letting these guys believe they have a shot at something with a girl they see as out of their league, why aren't they fucking taking it?
Who the hell ever accused girls of being indecisive, not knowing what they want, and being crazy in their emotions in terms of relationships or anything else.
Clearly, it was a guy who knew as little about that as what he wanted himself.
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