Whats Up Doc...
Sorry I've not been commenting that much recently kids, everything is going on over here and I am trying to motivate myself to do some sorting-out in my life.
I got my results from January back! A in english that was great but shocked me as I hadn't read the book and nearly everyone else from it got a U, it was evil looks ahoy for me.
But I need to make sure I don't rely on that too much! Argh.
On friday I was supposed to go to Beth's but cba as it was a trek and I knew Rachel would be there so it wasn't like she was alone anyway, then Fi who I hadn't seen in aaaages called and she only lives round the corner so I ended up at hers (don't tell beth, I was a crap friend!) finishing a bottle of vodka and trying to ignore misleading texts from Will while her monsieur-of-the-moment turned up and judged us for being drunk. He is a pretty boy (although far too short haha) from college that thinks he is IT. Hes really not but whatever. So I went to bed and woke up to another text from will.
Ah Will.
He texts me on friday evening asking me what I'm up to, I say I dunno (even though I have no real intention of going to town) then he texts back and says that he is having an early one but wants to know if I am too, by this time I'm at Fi's and we are drunkenly debating wether turning up at a poker party is a good idea so I text him saying who knows where I will end up blah blah.
Then I wake up in the morning to find a text sent by him at 3:30am saying he went to 42s but I wasn't there. Well pissed off, I'm ALWAYS at 42s, I actually convinced myself he doesn't go there because he knows he'll see me and then the one night I don't go he turns up! WTF.was tecx
But I can't be mad at him because he was all 'I went so I could see you'. argh.
Went shopping with my mum on saturday, she bought me a new charm for my bracelet which COSTED so then I just headed to primark haha, glad though because I haven't had new clothes in aaaages, just need some red heels now! Want to do a highstreet post soonish but its a mission really.
Then was texting Will again on saturday night which ended in him inviting me round to chill at his, soon enough we were watching lost in bed. Nothing happened though, when I did give the explanation of the wrong time of month he found the idea strangely novel. He really pushes for nothing, even though he wants it which is nice although I am bored and sexually frustrated so sooner or later want something.
I do want to make 1 thing clear to him despite our 'NON RELATIONSHIP' yes, in capitals, I feel before I sleep with him I want to say 'If I sleep with you, I have to be the only one sleeping with you' while I know he isn't with anyone else its the principal. I don't want to be in 42s or whatever and have some random girl he slept with last week there and thinking I'm just this weeks. Its been an effort with him and I've put myself through enough fucking torment to have that much respect, and before anyone says it I know it isn't really worth it, I just can't help it.
Anyway just been on his facebook (stalkers reunited) and one of his best mates left him a comment the evening I went round saying 'found anything to do yet?' so now I feel like I was just a last minute option, for fucks sakes.
Anyway he has gone back home to London yesterday for 3 weeks (!) until his loan for next term comes through. Which is annoying, I told him I was going on tuesday and he got all excited asking me how long for and all but I was only going for a day :( I wish he had invited me but its his parents house and he probs thinks I cba missioning all the way there anyway.
London was good on tuesday me and lauren and some other girls from our english just wandered around and I was loving it, at college all we get talked to about in Uni Uni Uni and while I always pictured myself going there recently when hearing about other friends going away and getting homesick etc I was like 'shiiiiit, maybe stay in manc' I do love it here but its the best time ever to move to another city but what if I hate it!
And I'll be there alone too because my friends that aren't staying in manchester (not too many of them either!) are going Leeds, talking to Gordon yesterday though I was relieved because he is determined to go to Cambridge and the little genius will definately get in so that ain't too far and I do love the critter. Even if one of the reasons I want to go is to make new friends, manchester is like everyone knows each other and you can't walk into a bar/club in manchester without having some near-incestuous bump into someone you know.
Argh, I need to sort out courses anyway so until then I shouldn't be making too many decisions.
My dad is supposed to be sorting out some internship/work experience for me somewhere in london anyway so I'll get more of an idea then, its just scary that while I keep thinking its ages away really our college make us hand in ucas forms in six months. and thats all we talk about in college.
And I can't even begin to talk about hideous call sentre work, which I keep being 'too ill' to go to, gawd Its vile and morally compromising as you know that people who give you their details are about to get fucked over so am applying anywhere else and quitting asap. Much to Beth's annoyance as she works there too and won't do it alone...
This has turned into a harry potter length novel.
haha.
xxx