i fucking hate you allen jeffrey blackford.
yanno.. i hadnt hung out with her since i moved out of her house.
April 16th.
Since then- i had seen her for a total of 5 minutes in person.
& talked to her on the phone maybe 3 times- totalling maybe 5 minutes.
Tonight Angela called me askin if i wanted to go to Sandbar with her & Jenna.
I hadnt chilled with Jenna in foreverrr either so i figured sure.
When they were supposed to be coming to get me-
Jenna calls me bawling crying saying Skoopz hit her & Angela let him; & then swung on her after that- & then they had left her at Cheaters.. or something to that extent... something drama filled. all i cared was that that fucker was hitting my friends and i did NOT like it..
so i fucking RAN to the the 711 in a damn mini skirt & flip flops to try & find a ride to Jenna.. from anyone, i didnt care. but Jenna had found a ride to me.. this guy Walt I had met a few months earlier through Dustin Halbrook. (Dustin left me at this guys house by myself when i barely knew him one night- scary!) .. so we went to Wendy's & then went to Walt's house in Virginia Park in Cocoa.
Angela calls Jenna's phone sometime later crying her eyes out apolgizing saying her & Skoopz got in a fight.. he hit her, through stuff at her & she left him at the hospital. So she met us at Walt's house allll fucked up.
The whole time were at this guys house, i just wanna leave- i just feeel uncomfortable & the guy doesnt like me.. he always calls me racist & calls me a hater? idk. we just clash i guess. He made me cry tonight.
When Angela & I finally left.. instead of her takin me home, she drove to her house. Skoopz was there & they got in a fight.. he asked me a few questions & i told him the truth & he insisted I was lying to him. He called me a few names like always & says he "dont trust me fuh nothin". & he walked outta the house sayin "fuck both yall."
Angela goes runnin after him screamin "baby no!! babyyyy come baaaack!" & hes tellin her how hes goin to knock on his mommas door & tellin her she needs to get rid of me & shit (like im a damn disease or somethin..?) & im just followin down the street with my arms crossed.. makin sure he doesnt put his hands on her or hurt her.. and hes still callin me names.. callin her names.. & up rolls a Sheriff.
He takes our names. Asks what happened. Asks why theyre arguing. Got everyones sides of the story. & She went home with him. He hit her. He hit her friend. Hes a fucking scumbag- & she went home with him. & let me get a ride home with the Sheriff. and lucky meeeeeeeee; i got to ride in the back of the cop car... while im crying my eyes out because i realize -- i really have lost my best friend.
im exhausted. my eyes are burning. my chest hurts. i wish nick was here so i could fall asleep in his arms & feel safe.
i got a tattoo today.
pics on myspace.
im finally going to sleep: 4:45am.
-sigh-
April 16th.
Since then- i had seen her for a total of 5 minutes in person.
& talked to her on the phone maybe 3 times- totalling maybe 5 minutes.
Tonight Angela called me askin if i wanted to go to Sandbar with her & Jenna.
I hadnt chilled with Jenna in foreverrr either so i figured sure.
When they were supposed to be coming to get me-
Jenna calls me bawling crying saying Skoopz hit her & Angela let him; & then swung on her after that- & then they had left her at Cheaters.. or something to that extent... something drama filled. all i cared was that that fucker was hitting my friends and i did NOT like it..
so i fucking RAN to the the 711 in a damn mini skirt & flip flops to try & find a ride to Jenna.. from anyone, i didnt care. but Jenna had found a ride to me.. this guy Walt I had met a few months earlier through Dustin Halbrook. (Dustin left me at this guys house by myself when i barely knew him one night- scary!) .. so we went to Wendy's & then went to Walt's house in Virginia Park in Cocoa.
Angela calls Jenna's phone sometime later crying her eyes out apolgizing saying her & Skoopz got in a fight.. he hit her, through stuff at her & she left him at the hospital. So she met us at Walt's house allll fucked up.
The whole time were at this guys house, i just wanna leave- i just feeel uncomfortable & the guy doesnt like me.. he always calls me racist & calls me a hater? idk. we just clash i guess. He made me cry tonight.
When Angela & I finally left.. instead of her takin me home, she drove to her house. Skoopz was there & they got in a fight.. he asked me a few questions & i told him the truth & he insisted I was lying to him. He called me a few names like always & says he "dont trust me fuh nothin". & he walked outta the house sayin "fuck both yall."
Angela goes runnin after him screamin "baby no!! babyyyy come baaaack!" & hes tellin her how hes goin to knock on his mommas door & tellin her she needs to get rid of me & shit (like im a damn disease or somethin..?) & im just followin down the street with my arms crossed.. makin sure he doesnt put his hands on her or hurt her.. and hes still callin me names.. callin her names.. & up rolls a Sheriff.
He takes our names. Asks what happened. Asks why theyre arguing. Got everyones sides of the story. & She went home with him. He hit her. He hit her friend. Hes a fucking scumbag- & she went home with him. & let me get a ride home with the Sheriff. and lucky meeeeeeeee; i got to ride in the back of the cop car... while im crying my eyes out because i realize -- i really have lost my best friend.
im exhausted. my eyes are burning. my chest hurts. i wish nick was here so i could fall asleep in his arms & feel safe.
i got a tattoo today.
pics on myspace.
im finally going to sleep: 4:45am.
-sigh-