Burdens;
Joyful at mindset shifts, I can see my thoughts changing week by week, day by day. But it isn't an easy thing too. To admit that all of this is real, to know it the way I see it now, is painful. It's a burden I feel like I'm bearing in my heart every day. Do not worry, I try hard to cling on to it, I try to trust, and I try to have faith. I've always been a person of little faith I realise, and I trust little. I'm trying harder now.
Going to school is harder now too. I question the veracity of what I read, what I learn. Is this aligned with my values or is it teaching me to mislead others? How can I sell anything I don't believe in? It's so hard to find things that make sense in this world, or simply, the economic system that's struggling to survive. The rich get richer, the poor are sidelined. Here in Singapore, I find myself being a part of everyone that is hoping that they don't see. Because when you see it's really really hard to keep your eyes open. How can I believe that this city, with its burgeoning skyscrapers and lust for more, better, bigger, brighter, has its urban poor too. I don't really want to believe it's real. If I know it's true, and it is, then what should I do? Can I then still continue to live the way I do now? It's hard to know the truth. Everyone struggles to keep their eyes closed. Nobody said knowing would be an easy thing.
It wasn't always supposed to be this way you know. Business at its core - what was it meant for? Simply a neutral means of the exchange of goods and services, right? But man and greed twists it under the semblance of something good, more efficiency, more economical, more everything I'm promising you it will be for your own good, I tell you it's for your own good, I redefine your wants and your needs. Under the guise of clever marketing, it's hard to question and be any wiser. I'm not saying it's impossible, it is possible. But the easy way out seems simpler. Really. But is easier, necessarily better?
At this point, my friends would probably say that I'm sounding way too cynical. It doesn't mean that because I see, I'm going to veer into the other extreme and be done with this world. It just means we all have to try harder to make your individual portion count. Nobody said it would be easy, and there are no promises that you can do anything about it, much less save the world. Ha ha. But does that mean we don't try? Not really. I'm trying. It's hard.
Going to school is harder now too. I question the veracity of what I read, what I learn. Is this aligned with my values or is it teaching me to mislead others? How can I sell anything I don't believe in? It's so hard to find things that make sense in this world, or simply, the economic system that's struggling to survive. The rich get richer, the poor are sidelined. Here in Singapore, I find myself being a part of everyone that is hoping that they don't see. Because when you see it's really really hard to keep your eyes open. How can I believe that this city, with its burgeoning skyscrapers and lust for more, better, bigger, brighter, has its urban poor too. I don't really want to believe it's real. If I know it's true, and it is, then what should I do? Can I then still continue to live the way I do now? It's hard to know the truth. Everyone struggles to keep their eyes closed. Nobody said knowing would be an easy thing.
It wasn't always supposed to be this way you know. Business at its core - what was it meant for? Simply a neutral means of the exchange of goods and services, right? But man and greed twists it under the semblance of something good, more efficiency, more economical, more everything I'm promising you it will be for your own good, I tell you it's for your own good, I redefine your wants and your needs. Under the guise of clever marketing, it's hard to question and be any wiser. I'm not saying it's impossible, it is possible. But the easy way out seems simpler. Really. But is easier, necessarily better?
At this point, my friends would probably say that I'm sounding way too cynical. It doesn't mean that because I see, I'm going to veer into the other extreme and be done with this world. It just means we all have to try harder to make your individual portion count. Nobody said it would be easy, and there are no promises that you can do anything about it, much less save the world. Ha ha. But does that mean we don't try? Not really. I'm trying. It's hard.