Wow. I Thought The LJ was dead.

[falseappearence]

Amazing.
My account has not been deleted.

As I was walking out into the bitter cold this morning,
I realized something.
I'm slowly dying.
Not only physically, but emotionally and mentally.
I no longer have any happiness.
Desires.
Hopes.
Dreams.
I'm just another body walking around on campus aimlessly.

Emo,
I know.

But I have nothing better to do when I'm sitting in my dorm room.
I can only think of how things used to be.

Can't live in the past,
I know.

I hate my future.
I love this school,
but it's hard to live here all by myself.
No friends.
No laughter.
Not even vodka.

Stupid,
I know.

Ah..
Motivation.
Where can I find some?

In myself,
I know.