Back to School
Maybe I'll actually stick with this this time. (I doubt it.) I thought I'd love living alone. I thought it'd be a blast seeing as how my roommates seem to have progressively gone down hill. But I hate it. There's no one to talk to, no one to eat with, no one to take turns cooking. I don't know what I'd do without my two kitties. I thought it'd be easier to study and get stuff done living alone. No one to argue with, no one to make noise. But all I wanna do is sit at my computer and talk to people. I really wanna talk to my boy. But I don't know where he is. He isn't online and didn't answer his phone when I called. I know he had an eye doctor appointment this morning, but... I'm sure he's out, just bein' busy. I miss him. School, although it's only the third day of classes, has not been overly friendly. Statistics 303, Economics 203, History 105, Organic Chemistry 227, and Venture Dynamics. I had Health Systems and Planning 370, but for an elective, it was going to take too much work. I'm sure there are easier electives out there. I'm just so lonely. I know Mike and I will have sex when he's here, but I don't understand it. He said a while back that he promised the man upstairs no more sex. But he said he made it very specific. One time, he put his ring on my finger, then he allows it on 'special occasions' but I have yet to see how me coming back to school is a special occasion. I think I'll ask him if he comes this weekend, when he's all ready, what kind of a special occasion it is this time. I don't mean to sound like a suspicious girlfriend, but I've been used for such things so many times. I figure it's better to find it out now, as opposed to later. Nine months is a long time to not realize something like that, but it just makes me a little weary at times about what's going on in his head. I need to find out before tests start up. I can't afford to get a bad grade on an exam again due to boyfriend/ex-boyfriend issues. Gosh I hope he's not that kind of guy. I wanna marry him. I can't really think of anything else to say right now. Maybe my mind will be clearer later on tonight. Feels good to get it off my chest though. Later!