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It was a hard summer. We were all struggling. Cordelia with her visions who were getting worse. Gunn with the fact that he thought he'd abandoned his 'crew'. Fred, trying to return to the normal world after five years in Pylea. Lorne coming to terms with leaving his homeworld behind. And Angel.
The news we received upon our return was a shock to those of us who knew Buffy. Angel took it very hard. But for once he didn't run away. At least not in the literal sense. Of course hiding in his room wasn't much better. I think Cordelia had given up on trying to lure him out. She and Gunn were more focused on getting Fred readjusted.
And then there was me. I was trying to come to terms with the fact that I had willingly send people to their deaths in Pylea. For a good cause certainly, but still. And then the news of Buffy dying in battle on top of that. The business wasn't going well with Angel not pulling his weight and as the boss I tried my best. Of course I hid all my worries from everyone, kept going as if there was nothing wrong. Pretending to be sucked in by the new scroll we had acquired. Though it was a fascinating scroll, translating it was hard and it made little sense. And my mind just wasn't on it.
It kept drifting off toward Angel. Alone in his room. I've tried several times to get him to leave. Warn him about one of Cordy's visions, tell him we needed help. He'd go out with us then, slay the demon. But his heart, beating or not, just wasn't in it. I worry about him. Perhaps a bit too much for just a friend. But I can't allow myself to think about that. He was grieving Buffy and we've all given him time.
It was time to move on though. Fred was, with the help of Gunn and Cordelia, slowly making progress. I had managed a few conversations with her, which were easier once we discovered we both had a passion for books. But Angel worried me. And this scroll, though I had no one to really share my thoughts on it with it. It was something about a visionary. A seer? That hit a little to close to home. Cordelia had enough to deal with already. I had better find out what exactly kind of bloody prophecy this scroll entails.
And get bloody Angel out of his room. Really, enough is enough. No amount of brooding is going to bring Buffy back.
The news we received upon our return was a shock to those of us who knew Buffy. Angel took it very hard. But for once he didn't run away. At least not in the literal sense. Of course hiding in his room wasn't much better. I think Cordelia had given up on trying to lure him out. She and Gunn were more focused on getting Fred readjusted.
And then there was me. I was trying to come to terms with the fact that I had willingly send people to their deaths in Pylea. For a good cause certainly, but still. And then the news of Buffy dying in battle on top of that. The business wasn't going well with Angel not pulling his weight and as the boss I tried my best. Of course I hid all my worries from everyone, kept going as if there was nothing wrong. Pretending to be sucked in by the new scroll we had acquired. Though it was a fascinating scroll, translating it was hard and it made little sense. And my mind just wasn't on it.
It kept drifting off toward Angel. Alone in his room. I've tried several times to get him to leave. Warn him about one of Cordy's visions, tell him we needed help. He'd go out with us then, slay the demon. But his heart, beating or not, just wasn't in it. I worry about him. Perhaps a bit too much for just a friend. But I can't allow myself to think about that. He was grieving Buffy and we've all given him time.
It was time to move on though. Fred was, with the help of Gunn and Cordelia, slowly making progress. I had managed a few conversations with her, which were easier once we discovered we both had a passion for books. But Angel worried me. And this scroll, though I had no one to really share my thoughts on it with it. It was something about a visionary. A seer? That hit a little to close to home. Cordelia had enough to deal with already. I had better find out what exactly kind of bloody prophecy this scroll entails.
And get bloody Angel out of his room. Really, enough is enough. No amount of brooding is going to bring Buffy back.