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[fallyynangyyl]

fuck this shit. right now, i'm about to say fuck you all. i'm fucking going crazy. everyone seems to think that i'm not trying hard enough. everyone's mad that i didnt have a baby sitter and had to call in today. I HAVE NO ONE TO WATCH HER. i know of NO ONE that can watch her. i have fucking tried. i cant afford fucking day care. erica wont watch her unless david says so. well david didnt fucking tell her if she could watch her. he hasnt seen celes in three god damned weeks, but he can fucking control my life like this. i'm so sick of this bullshit. i just want to get the fuck out of here. i dont know. i feel like my fucking life is going down the drain and all i can do is watch. no one has any fucking confidence in me. not even celes. for like two hours today she kept asking me who was watching her today. wtf man. she's two. she's nt supposed to ask me shit like that.

i'm about to have a damned mental break down. and you just better hope you're not around. it's not going to be pretty. not at all.

and i'm talking to jeff. which makes me miss him. well, atari was wearing his cologne the other day, and that made me miss him. how the fuck could he move on so fast? she fucking lives with him. she has lived with him. he moved on like, two weeks later.

i'm a pretty girl. i have a job. i'm nice. i dont fucking get it. why cant i just meet some one? some one to treat me right. love celes. no games. i hate games. i just want to have some one there.