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Okay, more ranting here from me.
Have I made a mistake? Like, I could be somewhere totally different in my life but I chose against it. I chose to move on and date someone else. Well shit is it crazy that I fuckin fell for her hard? Like in ways I've seriously never felt before. But she's got two more years left up there and I'm back in HBG and it just isn't going to work while we're away. Hell who knows if it ever will. It'd be nice if it did, because she's seriously amazing. She wrote me this letter a few weeks ago just explaining how she felt about me, and it was awesome. But it sucks that she sends that and then a week later we talk and say how unhappy we are that we can't do this. Now I just listen to the new Jimmy Eat World cd (well the demos, the actual cd isn't out yet) and get depressed. I can't keep doing this shit, I need to be happy. Anyway...So yeah we're not together anymore. Normally when I'm in this situation I end up hating the girl and you know just hoping that they'd feel the same. But not this time, and that's really weird for me. I hope she's happy, I hope she enjoys college (something I never got to do). Growing up? Maturing? I don't know. I do know one thing. I'm sick of things not working out. Is it too much to ask?
Have I made a mistake? Like, I could be somewhere totally different in my life but I chose against it. I chose to move on and date someone else. Well shit is it crazy that I fuckin fell for her hard? Like in ways I've seriously never felt before. But she's got two more years left up there and I'm back in HBG and it just isn't going to work while we're away. Hell who knows if it ever will. It'd be nice if it did, because she's seriously amazing. She wrote me this letter a few weeks ago just explaining how she felt about me, and it was awesome. But it sucks that she sends that and then a week later we talk and say how unhappy we are that we can't do this. Now I just listen to the new Jimmy Eat World cd (well the demos, the actual cd isn't out yet) and get depressed. I can't keep doing this shit, I need to be happy. Anyway...So yeah we're not together anymore. Normally when I'm in this situation I end up hating the girl and you know just hoping that they'd feel the same. But not this time, and that's really weird for me. I hope she's happy, I hope she enjoys college (something I never got to do). Growing up? Maturing? I don't know. I do know one thing. I'm sick of things not working out. Is it too much to ask?