flagpole sitta
so im doing a fucking slide show about flagpole sitting for school
and i really dont want to do it but i guess im doing okay on it.
right now....im in english. they are reading lord of the flies while i have
the option to read another book cause im special.
tawnys sister is moving today and i know she is taking it hella hard and i feel terrible
cause i know she is going to be upset
i have finally succeded getting mallory out of my life
and jessi is my amazing best friend
like i have always wanted.
despite the fights and lack of everything we are fine.
i guess im happy.
and i havent been able to say that or see it in a long time,
i have been spending so much time with mariah and tiara and its nice.
nice to have a place to go nice to have people to talk to.
more than one.
its wonderful. we have so much fun together. yelling at people and being loud.
just hanging out. i havent got to just " hang out " with someone and have fun
in a long time.
their is always drama. even though their is drama right now. with shay and all this bullshit
but i dont fucking care. thats ridiculous. and i will fix things as soon as i can
i dont want to get into a fight. but if i have to it will happen.
megan is now in virginia and its sad. i kinda miss her. we were texting the other day
that was nice.
i get to see kelly on saturday.
im happy. it will be nice to see her. with her cute smile and her hair
in front of her eyes.
it will be at one in the morning and i will probably be drunk but thats okay.
megan joy still wants to meet me. im not sure how that will happen or what im doing this summer
cause dad wants to send me away while hes gone. but im not leaving jessi.
we have so much to do this summer.
so many plans to make. so much camping . so much time together.
this summer is when abby grows up.
my summer before im 17. almost 18. and when 18 comes me and jess
will have our plans figured out and be long gone in new york.
and everything will go back to perfect. and everything will be nice.
me and duke had lunch at old chicago lately. i had a grilled cheese.
this whole not eating meat lately is making me happy too.
i feel skinnier.
healthier.
i feel better.
like alanis morisette better.
i guess i have lost some people as well. im not talking nor seeing lara as much.
and as for alisha. i dont know what the fuck is going on.
im done trying to make plans with her.
but i need her friendship.
she is always there for me. and waited for me when i was in rehab.
Kat. the new girl at school. is so wonderful.
im so happy i met her. she relates to me. and she also went to northwest.
so we share memories
and we know what we are talking about. she works in a chocolate factory.
its cute.
this is getting long. but i dont care.
i want to go to the beach and sit on the sand. and chainsmoke.
smoking. dangggggg a pack a day.
35 dollars a week. oh how i love it,
i hope my job at value village will work out.
i really do. that would be so perfect for me and just put the cherry on top of everything.
duke told me i seem happier which makes everything a lot easier.
cause iam.
dad will leave in may. and i cant way. three months without him.
it should be wonderful. just me and my madre. even though she thinks i skip school
and i dont. cause school is going amazing right now. passing all my classes.
havent missed one assignment. minus the whole not running during my other half
of bio physics. cause abby doesnt run.
not anymore.
i dont have aids.
im a vegetaruan
and i really dont want to do it but i guess im doing okay on it.
right now....im in english. they are reading lord of the flies while i have
the option to read another book cause im special.
tawnys sister is moving today and i know she is taking it hella hard and i feel terrible
cause i know she is going to be upset
i have finally succeded getting mallory out of my life
and jessi is my amazing best friend
like i have always wanted.
despite the fights and lack of everything we are fine.
i guess im happy.
and i havent been able to say that or see it in a long time,
i have been spending so much time with mariah and tiara and its nice.
nice to have a place to go nice to have people to talk to.
more than one.
its wonderful. we have so much fun together. yelling at people and being loud.
just hanging out. i havent got to just " hang out " with someone and have fun
in a long time.
their is always drama. even though their is drama right now. with shay and all this bullshit
but i dont fucking care. thats ridiculous. and i will fix things as soon as i can
i dont want to get into a fight. but if i have to it will happen.
megan is now in virginia and its sad. i kinda miss her. we were texting the other day
that was nice.
i get to see kelly on saturday.
im happy. it will be nice to see her. with her cute smile and her hair
in front of her eyes.
it will be at one in the morning and i will probably be drunk but thats okay.
megan joy still wants to meet me. im not sure how that will happen or what im doing this summer
cause dad wants to send me away while hes gone. but im not leaving jessi.
we have so much to do this summer.
so many plans to make. so much camping . so much time together.
this summer is when abby grows up.
my summer before im 17. almost 18. and when 18 comes me and jess
will have our plans figured out and be long gone in new york.
and everything will go back to perfect. and everything will be nice.
me and duke had lunch at old chicago lately. i had a grilled cheese.
this whole not eating meat lately is making me happy too.
i feel skinnier.
healthier.
i feel better.
like alanis morisette better.
i guess i have lost some people as well. im not talking nor seeing lara as much.
and as for alisha. i dont know what the fuck is going on.
im done trying to make plans with her.
but i need her friendship.
she is always there for me. and waited for me when i was in rehab.
Kat. the new girl at school. is so wonderful.
im so happy i met her. she relates to me. and she also went to northwest.
so we share memories
and we know what we are talking about. she works in a chocolate factory.
its cute.
this is getting long. but i dont care.
i want to go to the beach and sit on the sand. and chainsmoke.
smoking. dangggggg a pack a day.
35 dollars a week. oh how i love it,
i hope my job at value village will work out.
i really do. that would be so perfect for me and just put the cherry on top of everything.
duke told me i seem happier which makes everything a lot easier.
cause iam.
dad will leave in may. and i cant way. three months without him.
it should be wonderful. just me and my madre. even though she thinks i skip school
and i dont. cause school is going amazing right now. passing all my classes.
havent missed one assignment. minus the whole not running during my other half
of bio physics. cause abby doesnt run.
not anymore.
i dont have aids.
im a vegetaruan