Fuckin' A Mother Fucker
Well, it has come to my attention that i am no longer going to Northern. It is not a big deal in that fact that i was planning on transfering over to U of I next year anyway....however, it is just going to feel weird to be attending Harper for a year in the same neighborhood from the same house, while all my friends go out and make there lives successful. It really does make you feel stupid to be going to community college...even if it is just a year. This is just more news that has piled on me that has convinced me that this is most probably one of the worst weeks i have ever experienced. My car just broke down and i am losing friends left and right.....not to mention that i am still plagued by thoughts and memories at night that literally keep me up for hours. I guess it is a good thing though that i am not attending a real college, because i can keep myself from the alcoholics and such. Im just not cut out for drinking. I just tried to drink a beer, cuz i was so depressed....and i couldnt get through it, because it was so gross. But what are ya gunna do.