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[fallout_idol]

I think I actually hate myself more now than I did before. Actually I do. I miss the way I used to be. I thought I was regressing back to that before. I wasn't. I was just doing a lot of drugs. In a way, I regressed to a stage of how I was. Now I want it all back. I'm sick of feeling things. Nothing touched me before. I kept it all inside, which will eventually kill me, but I'm honestly sick of hurting. I don't expect anyone to understand. I already quit talking. I won't need this anymore. Fuck using something to vent shit out. I'll just let go again. Disengage. Not like I was going anywhere anyway.
"So I'm kissin' everyone goodbye
I'll wave my middle finger high
You're never gonna hear from me again"