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[fallontoaknife]

While I'm sitting at my computer, all drugged up on percocet,I realize that things have changed so drastically for me since this year has begun...Looking at myself now I see a rather happy person with someone she loves...and that loves her too with a big picture to look forward to. But thinking back to just December... God, what a mess I was, I wasn't eating, I was being used in the relationship I was in as just some trophy girlfriend...and in all reality I was a terribly depressed person. When I was flipping through some old floppy disks and old files I founfd this...it's a sont I wrote in Dec.
I Don't Think I'm Breathing by Hilary Lambiase

Verse 1:
What a waste of time
I'm not eating or sleeping
as if anorexia's a crime
they act like death is creeping on me
the toll it takes on my mind and body

Chorus:
I can't impress you
you're too depressing
I won't think less of you
I find myself stressing
I want to love you
I want you to want me
I can't impress you
I don't think I'm breathing

Verse 2:
I don't know how to deal
Find myself crying and mourning
got no sexual appeal
It's my brain that's scolding my heart
my emptiness is nothingness that's torn apart

Chorus

Bridge:
You think it's so damn easy
to fix a broken soul
but these thoughts consume me
I feel like letting go
I feel like letting go

Chorus 2x

I cant impress you
I don't think I'm breathing