The ultimate man.
A man is not someone who builds walls to hide behind as a shell of protection and comfort, but rather a person who knows that tearing down those walls is the very thing that is required of him.
A man is not someone who suppresses all signs of emotion for fear of being deemed weak, but rather a person who is unafraid to display grief or openly cry when a moment is so taxing on the human heart that it demands for it.
Refusing to feel is not a symbol of strength, but instead a reflection of how scared you are of confronting reality that you'd rather pretend things don't exist and opt for denial. Masculinity is not measured in such childish terms. Until you are fully conscious of this, you remain an emotionally stunted boy not yet ready to become a man.