Why cant I feel anything for anyone other than you?
Last night Dani and Ashley came over.. even though it was Christmas. It was good that they came over.. I probably would have stayed up all night crying if they hadnt. We watched Meet Joe Black.. the ending made me worry about if my dad and brother were okay or not.. even though I knew they were Its just kinda weird thinking about it. Christmas is the time too be happy but all I can do is think of everything thats going wrong. I always feel really alone around christmas. I cant stop thinking about Nolan and all the things I didnt have the guts too say.. Its really starting too drive me crazy and probably isnt healthy. <3