where i am

[fallnanglfrmabv]

"wear my badge"

as i rub my eyes
i see a slight vision of you
with one blink it dissapears
my face feeling warm

not able to sleep
so i'm constantly writing
about nothing
in particular

philly is asleep
why can't i be
asleep in my bed
where dreams seem real

when nothing matters
and feelings aren't felt
or maybe they are and we don't feel them
right away

beat from ear to ear
tap knock tap knock
switch and reverse it faster now
the beat picks up

i'm thinking it's a sign
right there
that won't go away
a big oddly shaped message

blinking to regain moisture
in my eyes
no more visions of you
not unless i close my eyes tight

a white glow from the screen
casts a shadow on my watering eyes
yawning in hopes i'll become sleepy
not so much

pretending to have a soul beneathe the surface
wonder if that applies
sometimes i'll just write out lyrics
because i feel they apply

current state is non-medicated
proud to be free from prescriptions
long lasting
waiting to break i spose

wrap my arms around the idea of you
who are you though
maybe i will know the truth one day
perhaps i will find you

buried beneathe it all
stable ground under me
whispers become louder
must be insane