Future BJD plans and some short rant.
So I was trying to keep it secretive about my next BJD, though I strongly hinted it was going to be one of my boys.
Well after the whole Iplehouse post, I think it's not secret anymore that the OC of mine to come home in BJD form WAS going to be Mircea.
Except now his mold (Iplehouse Mars) is no longer made by Iplehouse, so that plan kinda went out the window.
This is one of those moments where I am keep having a deep regret feeling, because actually, I got VERY close to putting Mircea on layaway, but then Soom caught me off guard with my little Qiuyue, and I put her on layaway instead. And now, though I love my Qiuyue so much, I really wish I had got Mircea after all.. Though I guess now, it was one or the other. Qiuyue was limited monthly edition, and Iplehouse was not making ANY sign that they where going to be quitting production of their Y.I.D line, and why they did that is BEYOND me. Not everyone wants a fucking 70cm doll Iplehouse!! SERIOUSLY. :/
So Mircea will come home in doll form, eventually, because I DO really want him home, I mean I love that OC of mine. I love what he's become. I even love him with my bestie Ash's OC Kira (who is his fiance and in doll form), so I am trying to find a back up mold, and keep my eyes open on DOA in the mean time JUST incase a Mars appears on the market.. if ANYONE sees one pop up, PLEASE message or note or email..just contact me!!
Anyways, with Mircea being a unsure thing till either said above happen, the next one on my list was going to be my OC Katsu. Because Katsu is actually another top fave of my OC's, and he demands a doll form as soon as possiable (haha). Only issue is.. Katsu, was a too be a Delf El special edition (the one with both normal and "sleepy" or in Katsu's case seductive eyes heads), which Lut's recenetly put production of on HOLD. :/ This. Is. IRRITATING. Doll sites better not starting to assume that everyone want's a fucking 70cm or bigger because that will piss me off. I like the 60cms, their easier to carry, and a good size. I know this because I carried Ash's Kira (69cm) and Damien (70-72cm) around Sakuracon for hours, and they killed my arms for a few hours too. Lol. Anyways, Lut's says they'll start up production on Delfs again eventually, so I guess it's saving a little bit here and there till they do. Or wait till they show up on DoA (Delf Els's are really not hard to fine on sale..).
Katsu would be a fine edition to have home (he also has a fiance that's Ash's OC Damien, who is in doll form as said above), and probably get alot of camera time.. plus, he'll be wearing both men and womans clothes (I have not decided if I will keep him on a delf body or he ringdolls thinner body..which they told me does fit Delf heads).
The other reason I want Katsu home is cause, besides being a favorite, he has formed himself a small fanbase.
My good friend Cara who is a wonderful drawer, has been drawing chibi and full formed Katsu (and some other of my OC's) left and right like crazy!! She even uses him for her own fashion, which is WONDERFUL (she wants to be a fashion designer someday). Currently, Katsu has a chibi for every Holiday starting christmas (and by holiday I mean big holidays, lol). I might post some up here!!
I even have friends who ask for keychains (she makes keychains of chibis) of Katsu just so they can have one with them!! XD It's crazy. I didn't think he was gonna become that popular but I guess crazy diva's get their attention even if their fictional, lol.
Onto other matters..
Some of my friends have been making me want to scream lately. If it's not one thing, it's another thing. And it's nothing bad. I love ALL my friends, so much. I just.. I feel like lately I am the friend who gives more and more, but I barely get anything in return. Even hanging out with friends I do alot for becomes a huge ordeal on there end when I ask. I don't understand it?
And then I feel left out of the loop alot too. Like some we'll make plans with me, we go into all the details, be it working on a cosplay, a cosplay prop, meeting up somewhere to do something, but then.. NOTHING. And when I attempt to ask, I get short answers or I get frustrated responses. Like, why would you be frustrated? I was the one thrown out of the loop here!!
I just.. I don't know.. other friends have told me to stop giving and giving to the ones who can't make equal effort (ironically some of the ones who said that are doing the exact same thing right now..), but that's just not me. I can't even stay that angry. It hurts yes, it irritates me yes, I'm I angry? Not for long.. and then I keep helping. Because I love my friends. Unconditionally.
It would just be nice if some could make a effort to even see me.. or acknowledge me..
Course this whole rant is probably just the emotional mix up feelings of my time of the month hopefully coming up here. :/ Blah.
Anyways, I am drinking some Vanilla Chai tea with a tad bit of coffee creamer in it for some extra taste. Munching on a tasty salad. Took some execdrin for headache trying to not let it get the best of me.
Feeling pretty ok right now. :)
Hope everyone is having a nice and safe night/day!! <3