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Yeah so it has been a while since I updated this thing.
So Uh yeah I am truthfully weird.
I'm kristen's ll, well there are a few other gals that sorta treat adn talk to me like Im a gal, its kinda weird. I really doont mind cause I like helping people out but it is kinda odd when it is a common occurance, I consider a few of these people good friends. So I am trying to understadn what it is about myself. It is sort of weird but IRL I have almost go guy friends that most of them are female, that I am uncomfortable around guys actually. I much rather hang out with women? Scary thought is if I was a female I probly really would be a lesbian. Even in high school most of my friends were female, I was their "tedd-bear" the few friends I had that is, the only male friend I hade was jon. The rest were mostly gals. Even look on here, I think almost all the members are female, online all my friends are female. Its sorta got me feeling all weirded out. I always could have had a gf if I wanted one ( I cant understand this though because honestly I am not all that attractive but have basicly been in a relationship after a relationship for over 4 years straight) I just also found out that my best friend from college that I helped out a lot (Angel) who i hooked up with koz, and they are still together, been 3 years now. Well she still has a huge crush on me. WTF? So uh yeah why is this. Just stuff like that, and the fact that on lj and blurty every single one of the people on my friends list are female, the majority of the people on my AIM list are female.
Oh wow so why am I saying all this? good question
so a question, why is this?
Am I like the gay friend but not gay?
Is it because I car?
Do I act feminine?
Do I really hate guys that much, if so why?
that whole thing confuses me but doesnt bother me.
Ill add more in a bit,
moving home tomorrow from college
Ok so issues with my parents, I told them absolutly everything. SO now they say they cant trust me, that Ive lied to them off adn on, well yeah no shit Ive lied. But if they can not trust me Im not even going to bother to tell them anything when everythign I have told them they use against me.
Now they are cutting a check for some old bills I owe adn using that as I should do everything they tel me too, they are basicly blackmailing me I fucking harte this
So Uh yeah I am truthfully weird.
I'm kristen's ll, well there are a few other gals that sorta treat adn talk to me like Im a gal, its kinda weird. I really doont mind cause I like helping people out but it is kinda odd when it is a common occurance, I consider a few of these people good friends. So I am trying to understadn what it is about myself. It is sort of weird but IRL I have almost go guy friends that most of them are female, that I am uncomfortable around guys actually. I much rather hang out with women? Scary thought is if I was a female I probly really would be a lesbian. Even in high school most of my friends were female, I was their "tedd-bear" the few friends I had that is, the only male friend I hade was jon. The rest were mostly gals. Even look on here, I think almost all the members are female, online all my friends are female. Its sorta got me feeling all weirded out. I always could have had a gf if I wanted one ( I cant understand this though because honestly I am not all that attractive but have basicly been in a relationship after a relationship for over 4 years straight) I just also found out that my best friend from college that I helped out a lot (Angel) who i hooked up with koz, and they are still together, been 3 years now. Well she still has a huge crush on me. WTF? So uh yeah why is this. Just stuff like that, and the fact that on lj and blurty every single one of the people on my friends list are female, the majority of the people on my AIM list are female.
Oh wow so why am I saying all this? good question
so a question, why is this?
Am I like the gay friend but not gay?
Is it because I car?
Do I act feminine?
Do I really hate guys that much, if so why?
that whole thing confuses me but doesnt bother me.
Ill add more in a bit,
moving home tomorrow from college
Ok so issues with my parents, I told them absolutly everything. SO now they say they cant trust me, that Ive lied to them off adn on, well yeah no shit Ive lied. But if they can not trust me Im not even going to bother to tell them anything when everythign I have told them they use against me.
Now they are cutting a check for some old bills I owe adn using that as I should do everything they tel me too, they are basicly blackmailing me I fucking harte this