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Patience is such a hard concept to grasp sometimes. Every day reminders of how short life is flood my head and i just want things to happen. I want to reach a goal and enjoy the rewards. It takes so much work to achieve something, everything. Sometimes the work is fun and that makes the reward better, but afterward when you think about how much precious time has passed, you lose your breath for a second as if you were practicing for the last one. To make it feel better i've been filling my life with little goals, things that don't really mean anything that just make me happy for a few seconds while brushing aside the big ones. "Live for the moment, because the next one may be your last" sort of shit.
Should i be looking for something that's going to last a lifetime or something that feels good now? It's that simple. My motivations for some things are so complex it's hard to find the simplicity in a decision. And even if i did make a decision, i feel like a completely different person every time i wake up and start a new day. How can i protect myself from regretting every decision after my mind has suddenly changed.
I'm going to the city, get a few tattoos, start a band, and scare people for a living.
I'm going to a suburb, buy a few nice suits, help people with technology, and find a wife.
Hear it like i do, and enjoy it, crushing, pummeling, destruction,
Should i be looking for something that's going to last a lifetime or something that feels good now? It's that simple. My motivations for some things are so complex it's hard to find the simplicity in a decision. And even if i did make a decision, i feel like a completely different person every time i wake up and start a new day. How can i protect myself from regretting every decision after my mind has suddenly changed.
I'm going to the city, get a few tattoos, start a band, and scare people for a living.
I'm going to a suburb, buy a few nice suits, help people with technology, and find a wife.
Hear it like i do, and enjoy it, crushing, pummeling, destruction,