i dont
know anymore. im so unsure of anything. the only good thing that has come out of this is. i know who my real friends are. even if we just got to be friends now, or if were friends but just not as close.
on the way down, i saw you. and you saved me from myself. and i wont forget the way you loved me. on the way down, i almost feel right thru. but i held on to you <--to the people mentioned below
LaurenKpavlock--my girl 4life, i love you so much<3
EllenMorstien..ur amazing<3
MatthewJohnWellen, a knight in shining armor, and a great bestfriend!! every girl needs one of you!!!=)
PBcheer, without even knowing it you made my day SO much better
"good luck with next year and this crazy life"-lm(lovya babe)
Despite all these wonderful people, i still feel so lonely. and literally so numb.i dont know why. well actually i do, its a little thing called my depression, and lack of me regularly taking my medz. i really need to get on that.=-/
ijust dont know anymore, i have no idea. what i should do, or how i should feel. but im gonna hit the hay! all the ppl mentioned above, you all are PRICLESS to me, and i love you and i always will<3 u guys are all my bestfriendss, in one way or another.=)
competition tomarrow...dear god. im nervous. please please please GOD, let everything hit, thats all i ask for.