"did david call?"
it was a clear black night, a clear white moon.
today i felt so bad. and i haven't had this feeling in a long time. i was able to piss off three people in about a half hour and i wanted to shoot myself for being such an idiot. and these are three people that aren't like "oh well, they'll get over it, i made a mistake." these are three people that i feel like i am truely hated now and won't ever be forgiven for what i've done. i can't stand it. and usually i can let go of these things. but this will not and cannot get out of my head and i want to break down and just get it all out of my system. i didn't know that at one point in time you could say that you were pissed at me.
ah ha. hush that fush... we da type of people make the club get cronk.
hey britney. are you ready?
all my people on the floor.
lets take on the zone.
my hips movin' at a rapid pace.
my stress is still shown on my face. disgusting.
i went to dawson today and skipped out cleaning in stained glass class. i talked in there for 35 minutes about my future. i have a lot to think about. and i have to decide sometime soon. i decided to postpone thinking about it until after finals week, when the stress pump at school has decreased in pressure. running start and heath occ= never touching BHS ever in my senior year. should i?
today has actually been a less stressful day. much better then lastnight. i presented in english today and asked to be the first one to present so i could get it over with. i nailed it. thanks for not making me nervous. it feels so good to not have a presentation to do the next day. my mood: way better then yesterday.
tomorrow i'm defiantly wearing my micheal jackson shirt. fuck yeah!!! i'm listening to a mega mix by him, its like all his great songs mixxxed. i need to make a date downstairs to watch his vids. oh shit! ahhh michael jackson! DO ME! hahahaha... when you were younger of course... haha.
today kyle bannister IMed me and told me to hook him up with some steven... and that steven=drugs and i=the hook up. and that he wanted some steven and i was the person to talk to. i told him i don't give steven out to school friends... and that steven is rare and expensive. hahaha it was such a great conversation. haha. just imagine kyle bannister asking me for some steven.
basketball practice tonight. told them i'm not working saturday the 7th, gettin' my hair did like always. nails will be done by myself. shoes... thems need to be found in syd's garage. by the way. out winter ball group is off the siznette. fer reel. i couldn't ask for a better group:
~randi
~liz
~syd
~jesse
~ry
~jake mag
~beason
toobad my boyfriend couldn't have decided to go with me BEFORE when i could have asked him in a tyght way....
don't be so quick to. walk away.
i feel your fever from miles around, i'll pick you up in my car and we'll paint the town. just kiss me baby and tell me once, that youre the one for me. you knock me off'f my feet.
"what about david?" just think about david. and you'll understand that you have a way better life. try it out. just go into your cold garage with a t-shirt on and pants and bare feet and have to sit on your hands while tilting your head back the whole time. if you were caught moving at all, you were beaten and then forced to swallow ammonia and re-eat your regurgitated frozen hot dog particles that were scooped from the toilet. try it out. and then think of david. you life is wayyy better. so shut the fuck up.
take life lightly... i need to too.