airborn

[fallinlove2nite]

coached by the best, to be the best. i'm glad that didn't hit me until i was safely home.

am i getting better at it? or can you see my fake smile? my anger and jealousy all behind that smile. ha. try bottling up some of this. of course you wouldn't see, becasue we never meet eyes.

eyes... speaking of eyes. "her eyes are the most beautiful in the

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i'm sorry

[anonymous]

i'm sorry val, but how am i supposed to know if i dont see you and i cant go out of my way to do that everyday and i dont know what you think. if you have a problem instead of bottling it up and feeling pissed why dont you come talk to me that might work better. and her eyes, i have always thought she had beautiful eyes so what there just eyes, if it makes you jealous i wont say it i'll keep it to myself. and if you feel you need to move on with your brown eyes you know what that would be a sad thing cuz i appreciate you being in my life when i can have you but we cant always have what we want but if you feel that way again lets talk and you can then decide but talk before you say things like that. And i'm really sorry cuz i cant be your wings i can be your partner while flying in the sky but i cant carry you shit i cant carry myself most times, my wings are just barely enough for me. i'm also sorry that i avoided eye contact today was a day i needed for myself no distractions nothing, sorry. and then finally i feel horrible that i have no time to give you, i am really busy all the time and the two days i am not i am selfish and expect you to be able to drop everything and be able to be with me but i feel bad already about this so please come talk to me instead of telling me about this or that get to your real feelings cuz i cant tell if you need me unless i really focus on only you and at school or anywhere when we are not alone i cant do that so for the last time please come talk to me about whats bothering you. I'M SORRY!

Re: i'm sorry

[fallinlove2nite]

i feel like i made you feel bad. is my LJ. i express things in code. and whenever i want to talk to you you are at work or somehting and can't talk. but i love that we can talk. i'm just being immature.

and i'm in sanchez' room right now and i'm hoping you'll walk thru this door any minute now.