been awhile....
hey guys... ya i kno its been awhile since i updated... idk.. lots been going on....
first of all, i didnt get NHS president... but at least i got my second choice, historian/service coordinator as opposed to something i totally didnt want...
as for boyfriend news.... Our one year is coming up fast!
I really do love him... I love him so much... Idk... I've never felt this way about ANYONE before. When i was in florida, the only person i was homesick for was rob... not my family, not my friends... i would seriously do anything for him... I don't even know how to express how exactly I feel about him... Well, put it this way- I saw him saturday, and todays wednesday and ive been fairly happy since then.... only like two or three times was i upset... and that was kuz of my rents and i cheered up sooner or later... It was thoughts of him that kept me from getting myself in more trouble...
Speaking of parents.... I want out of this friggin hellhole.... I cant wait for next year to come and go and then I'll be off on my own... With my mom, she's so friggin bipolar i never know whats gonna happen with her... She flips out about the tiniest things... and then dean... Yeah i can tell him most stuff.. and for the most part we get along... but there are those times where he just seriouslyyyyyyyyyyyyyy friggin ticks me off... like the other night, we were unloading the dishwasher right? and i was putting the cups away and he was handing them to me... I was taught by my mom to ALWAYS put the big cups in first so they can go in the back... so dean starts handing me the little glasses and im like Dean, can u give me the big ones b/c they need to go in first.. and he made some smart ass comment like "Y'kno, ive been doing the dishes for how long now and she tries to tell me how to do it.." That stuff really aggravates me... its like wtf... and he cant just be nice about it... when he wants to saysomething like that, if hes in a bad mood, everything is with sarcasm or sneer or w/e....
And dad.... well i am STILL fueding over the fact that mary told me before that they dont think i love them... and last night was the same...i told my dad at dinner that this weekend i had to be in the parades... Every year our band is in the memorial day parade... EVERY YEAR... since like, 4th grade... the only year i wasnt in it was ninth kuz i wasnt IN band... and maybe one other year but thats kuz it was friggin POURING outside... And he was like what would you have done if we had made plans to go somewhere this vacation... im just like WTF b/c he KNOWS im in it every year.. i mean, no he didnt bring me last year kuz i was with mom but he knows i was in it b/c he was there watchinggggggggg it....and THEN.. alright last friday was mary's graduation from CCRI.... and she had invited me to go... well i finally remembered to ask my mom on thursday... and she said No. wel i had asked her during dinner (i think... i remember it wasnt exactly a time to just get on the phone) so i wasnt gonna drop everything and call her right then... and then i forgot...so last night i got totally chewed out for not calling and etcetc... i was just basically serving up my food and staring at my plate... Dontcha just love how parents wait til a time they know u cant escape from to confront u about stuff ><..... Anyways towards the end, mary was like Well its water under the bridge now... *But* u should have said something... but like i wsaid, its water under the bridge...
Water under the bridge my ass.....
if it was water under hte bridge ya prolly wouldnt have brought it up in the first place. or u wouldve made just a small remark about it and not sat there for fifteen min. chewing me out about it.... and when u SAID it was water under the bridge there would have been no "but"....
... its like, they make me feel like i appreciate nothing and nobody, i dont love them, and im a selfish spoiled brat who needs to learn to grow up
first of all, i didnt get NHS president... but at least i got my second choice, historian/service coordinator as opposed to something i totally didnt want...
as for boyfriend news.... Our one year is coming up fast!
I really do love him... I love him so much... Idk... I've never felt this way about ANYONE before. When i was in florida, the only person i was homesick for was rob... not my family, not my friends... i would seriously do anything for him... I don't even know how to express how exactly I feel about him... Well, put it this way- I saw him saturday, and todays wednesday and ive been fairly happy since then.... only like two or three times was i upset... and that was kuz of my rents and i cheered up sooner or later... It was thoughts of him that kept me from getting myself in more trouble...
Speaking of parents.... I want out of this friggin hellhole.... I cant wait for next year to come and go and then I'll be off on my own... With my mom, she's so friggin bipolar i never know whats gonna happen with her... She flips out about the tiniest things... and then dean... Yeah i can tell him most stuff.. and for the most part we get along... but there are those times where he just seriouslyyyyyyyyyyyyyy friggin ticks me off... like the other night, we were unloading the dishwasher right? and i was putting the cups away and he was handing them to me... I was taught by my mom to ALWAYS put the big cups in first so they can go in the back... so dean starts handing me the little glasses and im like Dean, can u give me the big ones b/c they need to go in first.. and he made some smart ass comment like "Y'kno, ive been doing the dishes for how long now and she tries to tell me how to do it.." That stuff really aggravates me... its like wtf... and he cant just be nice about it... when he wants to saysomething like that, if hes in a bad mood, everything is with sarcasm or sneer or w/e....
And dad.... well i am STILL fueding over the fact that mary told me before that they dont think i love them... and last night was the same...i told my dad at dinner that this weekend i had to be in the parades... Every year our band is in the memorial day parade... EVERY YEAR... since like, 4th grade... the only year i wasnt in it was ninth kuz i wasnt IN band... and maybe one other year but thats kuz it was friggin POURING outside... And he was like what would you have done if we had made plans to go somewhere this vacation... im just like WTF b/c he KNOWS im in it every year.. i mean, no he didnt bring me last year kuz i was with mom but he knows i was in it b/c he was there watchinggggggggg it....and THEN.. alright last friday was mary's graduation from CCRI.... and she had invited me to go... well i finally remembered to ask my mom on thursday... and she said No. wel i had asked her during dinner (i think... i remember it wasnt exactly a time to just get on the phone) so i wasnt gonna drop everything and call her right then... and then i forgot...so last night i got totally chewed out for not calling and etcetc... i was just basically serving up my food and staring at my plate... Dontcha just love how parents wait til a time they know u cant escape from to confront u about stuff ><..... Anyways towards the end, mary was like Well its water under the bridge now... *But* u should have said something... but like i wsaid, its water under the bridge...
Water under the bridge my ass.....
if it was water under hte bridge ya prolly wouldnt have brought it up in the first place. or u wouldve made just a small remark about it and not sat there for fifteen min. chewing me out about it.... and when u SAID it was water under the bridge there would have been no "but"....
... its like, they make me feel like i appreciate nothing and nobody, i dont love them, and im a selfish spoiled brat who needs to learn to grow up