Imagery
I have this picture in my mind. I am changing to match it. Not much will change fundamentally, just my outward appearance. This is the change I have been striving for for a long time, but never had the patience or time to do it, or something would happen in my mind that made me feel I needed to backtrack. But soon, I will have no constraints. Nothing tying me down to what I have been forced to be. Step by step, I have inched towards what I see when I am looking at myself without the mirror. Slowly, I have sculpted myself through years of work and wait. I am so close, but the rest will take a few more years. I have waited this long. Now, everything is falling into it's proper place. I have lost a bit along the way, but gained so much more. The question of trading one loved thing or person for something more has come up time and again. Sometimes, I would lose track and make the choices I hadn't planned to. More often, I have made the sacrifice. Some of the old loved ones, I will never hold again. Some of them understood and simply watched my transformation. Some of them never noticed. Some of them helped me shape myself and, at times, modified my image closer to a perfection I hadn't seen prior.
110 days.
110 days.