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i'm tired. i'm tired of working all day long, and thinking i'm not working enough. i freaking want to do something else, like go out with my friends that i haven't seen since february, go to a restaurant by the sea, go to the beach, read some good fiction, take a nap, do something else than study.
it's impossible to describe my mood right now. i'm hurt. too much has happened that i still can't talk about. i moved back to my parents' to help my mom and because i've been afraid to stay on my own at home. i've completely lost touch with myself. i'm entirely in survival mode. i just study and worry. i don't see people anymore, i rarely go out, i can't stand patrick or my parents. i just want to be left alone and i have no energy to even start analyzing all that shit.
blah. things WILL get finalized on july, 7. at least july 2 i will be done.
it's impossible to describe my mood right now. i'm hurt. too much has happened that i still can't talk about. i moved back to my parents' to help my mom and because i've been afraid to stay on my own at home. i've completely lost touch with myself. i'm entirely in survival mode. i just study and worry. i don't see people anymore, i rarely go out, i can't stand patrick or my parents. i just want to be left alone and i have no energy to even start analyzing all that shit.
blah. things WILL get finalized on july, 7. at least july 2 i will be done.