confessions of a mmorpg addict
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I'v been playing since, last march 23 2004. (Ps2 release). I'v gained alot of friends, in-game and had a fun time with my RL friends. I'd like to say that, i'v had the best time on this game. Although my Real Life has suffered alot due to it. since the game i'v skipped school, so many days. I'v gotten left back to the 10th grade almost 2 times. and i'v gained 40 pounds (i used to be 174lb b4 game, now i'm 211lbs), I see myself today as a messed up human being. This game has really caused havoc. Although only reason i'v stayed so long, was b/c of the ppl in it. I guess thats the only reason anyone stays in this game. The people around me, in phoenix are the kindest, nicest, friendliest, people i have ever met. I'v worked alot of my character, 70 rng, 63 drg, 100+3 smithing, everything lvl 60 capped. but what do i gain in my Real Life by doing this. i know i over did this game, but i couldn't control myself. i Couldnt help myself to be a better person In Real Life. Instead i was trying to better myself in a fantasy world. I mean, yeah i have so much fun. But, there is a time for everything. A begining and a end. Even though i'm quiting, i guess i'll let my secrets out. I do admit to buying gil 2 times. When i was stuck at rabao with 3 gil and no items. I actually had to pay my mom and beg her (literally) to buy 50k. 2nd time was b/c i had to pay off a loan i borrowed from a friend 100k. and thoughs were like last summer. Since then, i'v earned gil the natural way. but yeah i did go bankrupt today, with 0 gils. b/c i took a gamble that i lost. spent all my gil 29mil to make hellfires. I like the fact that people are doing crafting, but listen everyone is over doing it and most are buying gil to make it happen. What will this help you with? will it help you get more fame? More gil?. I did it b/c i wanted to make a cursed hauberk for my RL friend. People today should listen to what i say b/c it will help you. If you craft and buy gil. If you PL your craft. you will hurt yourself and many others on the long run. Listen i alrdy make it as the 1st NA lvl 100 smither. But i want a person to surpass me. Just don't be a gil buyer, it hurts you and the economy. THis game itself has become currupt. since i used to play it in the old days. I see how alot of ppl have messed it up. I saw a time, where people respected each other. I remember when there was a time, when you had the pride to be in an HNM LS, but not for gil. I want everyone to understand how to respect each other, and how to not be money hungry. All my crafts i'v ever done, were free. I lost alot of gil doing it. all that time was b/c i wanted to be a nice guy. Gil sellers, drama, selling have curupted this server and game. I will NOT sell my gil, nor my Character. i will only split the gil amost my RL friends. I wanna thank, Armakoy, Hawkhellfire, Dres, Helm, Insanesyko, meropi, omen, rayray, rizzo, trixter, Alben, axynhito, buckdaddy, darkfuture, davida, Fignewton, General, henshin, immortaldonut, keithe keylee, legalus, moosey, ollieyk, radamantis, samia, sinz, skieth, Sharingan, stori, stormweaver, syldra, tiershon, tommi, valus, wilito, xell, yurial, Zeroera, harmonia, carmisse, fatman, freja, rayj, twizz, frisco, kujja, yunalescita, lefiel, SHIZUNE, kelindin, Fluke, cresentia, izzy, resetti, juma, orochinagi, suji, uzumaki, reticulex, alexnader, jerivalu, yuicheng, delync, barji, carson, ambur, faux, akiria, beorn, reft, mlkejr, cravy/godshand, valero, omen, Tiria, soro, fyunya/futuer, alanah, kahlan, vanostek, xterminater, swivel, trax, trawll, SUpersayingalka, legos, krish, mystywysty, ktd, lum, areya, hadesarchangel, felixia, reoin. SOOO MANY MORE PPL. i just can't remember atm. look, everyone. I love you alll soo much. but my RL is at risk, with my future. I mean what will this game help me with in the future. I wanna mainly thank my RL friends Krosis, Hova, Krypto, Darkon, Stormwarrior, Yshtar, Revo, Phats. Man with out you guys, i'd never gotten to where i am/was. I'd like to thank UrusiesLUMs, Thirteen, Assassins, Dawn, Genesis, Fury, Wildsevens, Starlets, ChainsofBastok, Legacy, crazy88, Coldfusion, and MAINLY burning Cosmoss.you guys are the best LS ever. All the other LSs, Thank you for your members being sooo kind to me and friendly =). I know this is a very long good bye, but i don't wanna forget anyone. You all mean the world to me.but i guess i'll just quit, but leave my character active every 3 months. I won't sell my gil, nor my character. It'll be a retired 100 smither. I will guide my friend krosis to the next 100 smither. I really wanna say thank you to everyone, and plz be peaceful, respectful, and always remember that this is only a game. I will be leaving this game on Friday,
I apologize for my spelling and/or grammer mistakes. I wrote this post very fast.
Reasons Why i'm leaving:
-Failed 3 semesters of sophmore year
-I ranaway from home alot
-I ended up in a psych ward
-i gained 40 lbs,
-I'v literally lost my life,
-I'm on this game 24/7
-i use to be brolic and strong, now i'm weak.
-the game is curupt
-too many gil buyers, and sellers.
-i'v done my job and became lvl 100
-every begining has an end
- i'd like to think of my furture
-i'd like to get back in shape
-I want to save my life
-i want to get things better
-I have to take prozac now
-my family rarely sees me
-irarely go outside
-its summer
alot mre stuff, that are personal.
I dont care if anything happens now, my last msg is. THE only person i'v ever hated, was BLACKBERSERKER. i really hope you die a horrible death (in-game) every second of your miserable life.
G/L TO ALL OF YOU, BUT YOU NEED TO GET LIVES AND GO GET A GIRL FRIEND OR SOMETHING.
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i like how he thinks he's Neo and shit "every beginning has an end"
I'v been playing since, last march 23 2004. (Ps2 release). I'v gained alot of friends, in-game and had a fun time with my RL friends. I'd like to say that, i'v had the best time on this game. Although my Real Life has suffered alot due to it. since the game i'v skipped school, so many days. I'v gotten left back to the 10th grade almost 2 times. and i'v gained 40 pounds (i used to be 174lb b4 game, now i'm 211lbs), I see myself today as a messed up human being. This game has really caused havoc. Although only reason i'v stayed so long, was b/c of the ppl in it. I guess thats the only reason anyone stays in this game. The people around me, in phoenix are the kindest, nicest, friendliest, people i have ever met. I'v worked alot of my character, 70 rng, 63 drg, 100+3 smithing, everything lvl 60 capped. but what do i gain in my Real Life by doing this. i know i over did this game, but i couldn't control myself. i Couldnt help myself to be a better person In Real Life. Instead i was trying to better myself in a fantasy world. I mean, yeah i have so much fun. But, there is a time for everything. A begining and a end. Even though i'm quiting, i guess i'll let my secrets out. I do admit to buying gil 2 times. When i was stuck at rabao with 3 gil and no items. I actually had to pay my mom and beg her (literally) to buy 50k. 2nd time was b/c i had to pay off a loan i borrowed from a friend 100k. and thoughs were like last summer. Since then, i'v earned gil the natural way. but yeah i did go bankrupt today, with 0 gils. b/c i took a gamble that i lost. spent all my gil 29mil to make hellfires. I like the fact that people are doing crafting, but listen everyone is over doing it and most are buying gil to make it happen. What will this help you with? will it help you get more fame? More gil?. I did it b/c i wanted to make a cursed hauberk for my RL friend. People today should listen to what i say b/c it will help you. If you craft and buy gil. If you PL your craft. you will hurt yourself and many others on the long run. Listen i alrdy make it as the 1st NA lvl 100 smither. But i want a person to surpass me. Just don't be a gil buyer, it hurts you and the economy. THis game itself has become currupt. since i used to play it in the old days. I see how alot of ppl have messed it up. I saw a time, where people respected each other. I remember when there was a time, when you had the pride to be in an HNM LS, but not for gil. I want everyone to understand how to respect each other, and how to not be money hungry. All my crafts i'v ever done, were free. I lost alot of gil doing it. all that time was b/c i wanted to be a nice guy. Gil sellers, drama, selling have curupted this server and game. I will NOT sell my gil, nor my Character. i will only split the gil amost my RL friends. I wanna thank, Armakoy, Hawkhellfire, Dres, Helm, Insanesyko, meropi, omen, rayray, rizzo, trixter, Alben, axynhito, buckdaddy, darkfuture, davida, Fignewton, General, henshin, immortaldonut, keithe keylee, legalus, moosey, ollieyk, radamantis, samia, sinz, skieth, Sharingan, stori, stormweaver, syldra, tiershon, tommi, valus, wilito, xell, yurial, Zeroera, harmonia, carmisse, fatman, freja, rayj, twizz, frisco, kujja, yunalescita, lefiel, SHIZUNE, kelindin, Fluke, cresentia, izzy, resetti, juma, orochinagi, suji, uzumaki, reticulex, alexnader, jerivalu, yuicheng, delync, barji, carson, ambur, faux, akiria, beorn, reft, mlkejr, cravy/godshand, valero, omen, Tiria, soro, fyunya/futuer, alanah, kahlan, vanostek, xterminater, swivel, trax, trawll, SUpersayingalka, legos, krish, mystywysty, ktd, lum, areya, hadesarchangel, felixia, reoin. SOOO MANY MORE PPL. i just can't remember atm. look, everyone. I love you alll soo much. but my RL is at risk, with my future. I mean what will this game help me with in the future. I wanna mainly thank my RL friends Krosis, Hova, Krypto, Darkon, Stormwarrior, Yshtar, Revo, Phats. Man with out you guys, i'd never gotten to where i am/was. I'd like to thank UrusiesLUMs, Thirteen, Assassins, Dawn, Genesis, Fury, Wildsevens, Starlets, ChainsofBastok, Legacy, crazy88, Coldfusion, and MAINLY burning Cosmoss.you guys are the best LS ever. All the other LSs, Thank you for your members being sooo kind to me and friendly =). I know this is a very long good bye, but i don't wanna forget anyone. You all mean the world to me.but i guess i'll just quit, but leave my character active every 3 months. I won't sell my gil, nor my character. It'll be a retired 100 smither. I will guide my friend krosis to the next 100 smither. I really wanna say thank you to everyone, and plz be peaceful, respectful, and always remember that this is only a game. I will be leaving this game on Friday,
I apologize for my spelling and/or grammer mistakes. I wrote this post very fast.
Reasons Why i'm leaving:
-Failed 3 semesters of sophmore year
-I ranaway from home alot
-I ended up in a psych ward
-i gained 40 lbs,
-I'v literally lost my life,
-I'm on this game 24/7
-i use to be brolic and strong, now i'm weak.
-the game is curupt
-too many gil buyers, and sellers.
-i'v done my job and became lvl 100
-every begining has an end
- i'd like to think of my furture
-i'd like to get back in shape
-I want to save my life
-i want to get things better
-I have to take prozac now
-my family rarely sees me
-irarely go outside
-its summer
alot mre stuff, that are personal.
I dont care if anything happens now, my last msg is. THE only person i'v ever hated, was BLACKBERSERKER. i really hope you die a horrible death (in-game) every second of your miserable life.
G/L TO ALL OF YOU, BUT YOU NEED TO GET LIVES AND GO GET A GIRL FRIEND OR SOMETHING.
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i like how he thinks he's Neo and shit "every beginning has an end"