Apr 01, 2006 18:57
FUCK
all i want to do is scream. i'm so sick of everything. just EVERYTHING. school, my parents, water polo, work, just everything. school - i cant wait to fucking graduate already and leave. parents - are supposed to be nice, instead i have a one that is constantly nagging and sarcastic (you can do no good) and the other a work obsessed loan shark. : ) water polo - no one gives a shit, we dont have a coach, i'm sick of working my ass off in a game for nothing, i dont know if its worth it. work - i cant sit down in my house without one of my parents asking me why i'm not working, there is no such thing as down time anymore. FUCK!!!!!!!!! i'm truely tempted to just sell my car...pay off my mom and just be fucking done with it. do i really need a car?
i dont know. i'm sick of "calming down" and "relaxing" i'm just fed up. i cant take it anymore...i need to do something. what exactly? i'm not sure.
fuck.