i dont want to think about whats going to happen ... but sometimes just cant help self =(
Split this entry into parts .. just too long.
Dee and I got into a huge fight today. I didn’t even realize we were that loud .. Vic heard us on his way out and asked us what was going on. At the time I was the one talking and I remember saying “I’m not making the bloody KOC invoice coz I don’t have a clue as to what it was about” and then I heard his voice “what’s going on ladies”. We both went quiet .. didn’t look at him .. starred at the floor the whole time when talking to him. He must think we don’t get along or something. And he kept asking if it was something b/n us or to do with work. he was calm .. talked to us like he was our friend or something. That’s what I like so much about him. he makes us feel comfy when something upsets us (its happened to me 4-5 times before).
As soon as he left she told me to pack up coz her dad was waiting down … we were both in tears after Vic left .. I couldn’t talk and suddenly stood up said I was sorry and cried and cried and all I said was “Dee I’m sorry I’m so sorry” and she hugged me and said “its ok just forget what happened”.
We want to talk to him as soon as he comes in on Saturday … apologize for behaving the way we did and tell him we are good together (as in get along .. we really are .. friends get into stupid fights etc and disagree on certain things .. I just wish I had the guts to tell her certain things without her thinking wrong of what I’m saying and making it look like I backbite her in my lj …) tell him what Han’s been telling us, ask him if he really does think we are not capable (God I hate the thought of that).
And what happened today was the worse thing ever .. apparently he’s leaving Kuwait (coz Chris and Gary need to check out uni’s in the UK .. so yeah the whole family is going) and he doesn’t want to leave until Han gets back =( obviously think we cant take care of the dept =(
Went to Dee’s after work, was there till 8.30 pm. Her dad had to pay fine coz he was waiting for her in a NO parking place and he yelled at her and when we got to her place her whole family was hard on her and she cried =( I just felt so guilty like it was all my fault … if I hadn’t said anything in the 1st place we wouldn’t have got into a fight and Vic wouldn’t have heard us and we wouldn’t have wasted time up and her dad didn’t have to pay a fine.
Later met Nick and Sabi (off to the mall) called Dav (coz I felt the need to talk to someone) lol it started as a txt msg and he sent me this funny one and I ended calling him up. Told him what happened at work, asked him if he could come to the mall (don’t know what he said to that I really couldn’t hear him). we always joke around .. never really had a decent serious talk except for yesterday and its nice to have someone who speaks ‘english’ and someone who understands how you feel … poor guy is so alone in Kuwait, no friends no family nobody … to me he’s more friend than just a manager/ colleague. He’s a very good person .. good at heart =)
I’ve had a few ‘Chris moments’ today … I haven’t really opened up and talked about our last chat. I guess I miss him … I think about Richie a lot as well … everythings just … not right …
Dee and I got into a huge fight today. I didn’t even realize we were that loud .. Vic heard us on his way out and asked us what was going on. At the time I was the one talking and I remember saying “I’m not making the bloody KOC invoice coz I don’t have a clue as to what it was about” and then I heard his voice “what’s going on ladies”. We both went quiet .. didn’t look at him .. starred at the floor the whole time when talking to him. He must think we don’t get along or something. And he kept asking if it was something b/n us or to do with work. he was calm .. talked to us like he was our friend or something. That’s what I like so much about him. he makes us feel comfy when something upsets us (its happened to me 4-5 times before).
As soon as he left she told me to pack up coz her dad was waiting down … we were both in tears after Vic left .. I couldn’t talk and suddenly stood up said I was sorry and cried and cried and all I said was “Dee I’m sorry I’m so sorry” and she hugged me and said “its ok just forget what happened”.
We want to talk to him as soon as he comes in on Saturday … apologize for behaving the way we did and tell him we are good together (as in get along .. we really are .. friends get into stupid fights etc and disagree on certain things .. I just wish I had the guts to tell her certain things without her thinking wrong of what I’m saying and making it look like I backbite her in my lj …) tell him what Han’s been telling us, ask him if he really does think we are not capable (God I hate the thought of that).
And what happened today was the worse thing ever .. apparently he’s leaving Kuwait (coz Chris and Gary need to check out uni’s in the UK .. so yeah the whole family is going) and he doesn’t want to leave until Han gets back =( obviously think we cant take care of the dept =(
Went to Dee’s after work, was there till 8.30 pm. Her dad had to pay fine coz he was waiting for her in a NO parking place and he yelled at her and when we got to her place her whole family was hard on her and she cried =( I just felt so guilty like it was all my fault … if I hadn’t said anything in the 1st place we wouldn’t have got into a fight and Vic wouldn’t have heard us and we wouldn’t have wasted time up and her dad didn’t have to pay a fine.
Later met Nick and Sabi (off to the mall) called Dav (coz I felt the need to talk to someone) lol it started as a txt msg and he sent me this funny one and I ended calling him up. Told him what happened at work, asked him if he could come to the mall (don’t know what he said to that I really couldn’t hear him). we always joke around .. never really had a decent serious talk except for yesterday and its nice to have someone who speaks ‘english’ and someone who understands how you feel … poor guy is so alone in Kuwait, no friends no family nobody … to me he’s more friend than just a manager/ colleague. He’s a very good person .. good at heart =)
I’ve had a few ‘Chris moments’ today … I haven’t really opened up and talked about our last chat. I guess I miss him … I think about Richie a lot as well … everythings just … not right …