Dreams arent what they used to be, some things slide by so carelessly
I'm scared again :-/ I'm not sure why though. I feel like .. just filled with fear and for what .. am not sure :-(
I went out with Andy 2 nights ago. We went to Sheesha Heaven. Shared a sheesha. I had my usual - fries and garlic paste! He ordered what looked to me like a lot of food lol. Anyhoo, I had a nice time and so did he which was pretty cool :-) I saw Raj and Jo!! They're from N's circle. I dont know why I freaked out. I guess was feeling a bit guilty but then again why should I :-/ am just really confused.
Sharmila, Stan and Nick keeps calling it a date? Is it? Am not sure .. I was looking at it as a friends night out like thing ... just the 2 of us though. I want to invite him out with the rest of the gang - should be alrighty.
Yesterday work was shit. Got in late and Niamh was mad at me. There was a meeting so we ordered Arabic food and Andy wanted to have something to eat to I thought I'd keep him company and also called Sharmila - there again Niamh was all weirded out :-/ I dont get her. Had to stick around till late. Was dying of boredom and was also really very tired which made me feel even more worse. Finally at around 6.30 I called Stan and I wanted to cry. I wasnt sure why .. just wanted to :-/ I wanted to go home but Stan told me to hook up with them so I did. I felt a bit okay. Ains kept taking my ass. I felt like I hadnt seen him in ages, gosh I miss not having him around at work. I'll be uploading 2 other vid's of him =D Anyway, so we decided to have dinner and headed to Orientals and mum called. My mood went completely off and I told them it would be better if we left and we did (this was after placing the order which was really bad!).
I've also finally gotten my own pack of cigs ... I dont smoke all the time but I just dont want to go around asking for a cig. Will borrow a lighter from someone at work.
I've been thinking about N a lot too ... its all weird. I've dreamt about him 3ce this past week ... Dont want to think about it ...
Hope all's well with you lot. Tc x
I went out with Andy 2 nights ago. We went to Sheesha Heaven. Shared a sheesha. I had my usual - fries and garlic paste! He ordered what looked to me like a lot of food lol. Anyhoo, I had a nice time and so did he which was pretty cool :-) I saw Raj and Jo!! They're from N's circle. I dont know why I freaked out. I guess was feeling a bit guilty but then again why should I :-/ am just really confused.
Sharmila, Stan and Nick keeps calling it a date? Is it? Am not sure .. I was looking at it as a friends night out like thing ... just the 2 of us though. I want to invite him out with the rest of the gang - should be alrighty.
Yesterday work was shit. Got in late and Niamh was mad at me. There was a meeting so we ordered Arabic food and Andy wanted to have something to eat to I thought I'd keep him company and also called Sharmila - there again Niamh was all weirded out :-/ I dont get her. Had to stick around till late. Was dying of boredom and was also really very tired which made me feel even more worse. Finally at around 6.30 I called Stan and I wanted to cry. I wasnt sure why .. just wanted to :-/ I wanted to go home but Stan told me to hook up with them so I did. I felt a bit okay. Ains kept taking my ass. I felt like I hadnt seen him in ages, gosh I miss not having him around at work. I'll be uploading 2 other vid's of him =D Anyway, so we decided to have dinner and headed to Orientals and mum called. My mood went completely off and I told them it would be better if we left and we did (this was after placing the order which was really bad!).
I've also finally gotten my own pack of cigs ... I dont smoke all the time but I just dont want to go around asking for a cig. Will borrow a lighter from someone at work.
I've been thinking about N a lot too ... its all weird. I've dreamt about him 3ce this past week ... Dont want to think about it ...
Hope all's well with you lot. Tc x