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Just got out of the shower … I started crying and I’m not quite sure why. Maybe I’m pms’ing … I kind of know a little something that is bothering me but I’m really embarrassed to say it. I might of mentioned it to Bethy in my last e-mail to her …
I went to Jan & Chris’ tonight to pay him the money and there was this weird ‘distance’ b/n us. Jan wasn’t home, it was just the kids (Josh’s mate was around too with his little sis). Chris didn’t touch me at all today! It was so weird after his crazy behaviour lately. He didn’t even look at me .. it felt like I had done something wrong :-/
Work was … chatty. Been around dept’s and talking to people and such. Work-wise I didn’t do much. I finally registered for the TOEFL and have to answer this coming Sunday … should study for it. What I love most about being at work is when I’m with Nabeel, Ainsley and Sav - I’m always smiling/ laughing when with them and it feels so nice. Nabeel is soo cute - last Friday I wanted to kiss him in the smoke room (not sure I mentioned this in an earlier entry) - today I caught him looking at me several times and it was making me feel a little uncomfy ... I like him but the thing is ... the image I have of him in my mind isn’t someone I would like to be with. Besides, I don’t think I’m his -type- then again I dont feel like I could be anyones type :-/ There are these 2 American Soldiers, Ash and no idea wht the other guys name is - but most of you know how I like my men all Brit ... I'm just not going to find anyone decent enough to date till I get out of here I guess.
What I have failed to mention in my last few posts is that ........ well .. I don’t miss Richie ... I’m not sure if it’s a good or a bad thing ...
I think I’m going to break down again :-(
I went to Jan & Chris’ tonight to pay him the money and there was this weird ‘distance’ b/n us. Jan wasn’t home, it was just the kids (Josh’s mate was around too with his little sis). Chris didn’t touch me at all today! It was so weird after his crazy behaviour lately. He didn’t even look at me .. it felt like I had done something wrong :-/
Work was … chatty. Been around dept’s and talking to people and such. Work-wise I didn’t do much. I finally registered for the TOEFL and have to answer this coming Sunday … should study for it. What I love most about being at work is when I’m with Nabeel, Ainsley and Sav - I’m always smiling/ laughing when with them and it feels so nice. Nabeel is soo cute - last Friday I wanted to kiss him in the smoke room (not sure I mentioned this in an earlier entry) - today I caught him looking at me several times and it was making me feel a little uncomfy ... I like him but the thing is ... the image I have of him in my mind isn’t someone I would like to be with. Besides, I don’t think I’m his -type- then again I dont feel like I could be anyones type :-/ There are these 2 American Soldiers, Ash and no idea wht the other guys name is - but most of you know how I like my men all Brit ... I'm just not going to find anyone decent enough to date till I get out of here I guess.
What I have failed to mention in my last few posts is that ........ well .. I don’t miss Richie ... I’m not sure if it’s a good or a bad thing ...
I think I’m going to break down again :-(